37 DAYS!!!!!!

Yesterday while I was shopping I got a call from Sue at Amherst and we scheduled the last walk throughs and the closing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The walk through is on August 22 at 9 a.m. and the final walk through is on August 29 at 9 a.m.

The closing is August 31 at 10 a.m....

I'm soooo freaking excited!!!!! We actually have a date set for the closing!!! YAY!!!!!!

I can't wait... It's so hard to believe... so freaking surreal.. Like I keep expecting to wake up from the dream... Or I keep expecting something to go wrong... like the house will burn down and they'll have to start over, or something will happen and the mortgage will fall through at the last minute... Lol... Of course I know that won't happen... But someone could burn the house down... if they do I'll hurt them tho!! lol...

I can't wait... I'm so freaking excited. I feel like a giddy kid who just got an A on her test and wants to scream it from the roof tops!! It's so amazing!!!!

Some good, Some not so good...

Well it's been a week since my last post so alots happened....

On Monday or Tuesday we went with Jen to look at the house becuase she wanted to see it. While we were there we saw that people had written on the walls, which isn't a big deal because they paint he walls anyways. But then in the kitchen around where the fridge is going to go somebody punched a hole in the wall... They said they'll fix it and they also said that they'll start locking up the doors when they're done at night and on the weekends.

So on Tuesday I worked, Aiden was in a pretty good mood. Same on Thursday.

On Wednesday I took Jen to her doctors appointment. She was nervous about it so I took the day off and went with her. She lied to the doctor about a couple things. She didn't tell the doctor about her abortion and didn't tell the doctor about her drug abuse. But I didn't think she would... All they did was a lot of paper work and then they took alot of blood. They said they couldn't do the ultrasound because her bladder wasn't full... So she has another appointment on Wednesday this week, maybe they'll do the ultrasound this week... I dunno tho...

On Friday we just sat at home and watched Xfiles... It was relaxing.

Yesterday we went to the zoo... It's not a very nice zoo... comparied to the Tulsa zoo. But then again, the Tulsa zoo is one of the top rated zoos in the country... Lol... Guess I've been spoiled on zoos. It was relaxing though. I took alot of pictures. I will say that scenery at the Detroit zoo is very nice.

We didn't go to Beth's because she went to Indiana to camp with Mike's family... I hope she enjoyed herself.

When we got home from the zoo yesterday i found out that SBC finally cancelled my email account... I was kinda pissed because I've lost all my contacts from messenger and my address book. I'm going to call SBC tomorrow and see if theres a way for me to get them. I wasn't happy about that... I was able to set up a Yahoo account but I'm still pissed because I don't know all my email addresses from my address book, or my contacts on Messenger... UGH!!!!

Today we went to the house... It's soooo awesome. They have the cabinets in, all the molding and trim is up, same with the doors.... It's just soooooo cool. While we were there the painting guys were there and doing the attic... It's so cool. Sorry I keep saying that but it is. I can't wait to see what they've done next week.

After we went to the house we went to Fay and Jerry's. Around 2:30 Mike showed up. It was good to see him. It took them about 10 hours to drive in from NY. It's a little odd around Elba tho because she's deaf. I feel like I'm leaving her out of the conversation.... And of course she cant talk to us either. Mike and Jessie are the only one's that know sign language. It's cool that he learned sign language just to be with her though. Jessie is good at it too, of course she learned sign language before she could talk. Jessie was in the pool the whole time practically...

Anyways, not much else is going on. Just doing some laundry, cleaned out the litter box, etc....

Pics of the house!!!!

Here's some pictures of the house. It's soo cool!!!

Jen's Guidelines...

Here's what we told Jen last week.

Jennifer,

We want you to be a responsible, mature, and independent woman. Living in our home is a privilege NOT a right.

T Eric’s name HAS to be on the birth certificate.
T Eric HAS to pay child support
T Eric can NOT spend the night under ANY circumstances, however he can visit and spend time with you and the baby. We just don’t want him spending the night.
T You HAVE to work up until you 8th month of pregnancy. If the job you have now does not give you a chance to work then you need to find a new job or take on a second job.
T You HAVE to go back to work 6 weeks after having the baby.
T You and Eric HAVE to take parenting and child birth classes.
T Your space in the new home will be the loft and bedroom. You are to keep that space respectably clean. This will be yours and the babies space. We will not invade your space unless you are there and give us permission to enter.
T You will respect the new home in its entirety.
T You will be responsible for yours and the babies expenses. This includes bathing supplies, furniture, some foods, etc. If we do not have the foods that you want then you can buy them yourself.
T If you decide to stay in the new home with us then at some point you will be expected to pay rent. Rent will kick in on June 1, 2007; unless you start cosmetology school. The amount of rent will be determined at that time.
If you go to cosmetology school you will be expected to move out upon your graduation of schooling. If you do not go to school then you will be expected to move out by the end of 2007 or when Mandy gets pregnant.

You will also be expected to clean up after yourself and the baby. This includes all bottles and diapers. There are to be no dirty bottles in the sink at any time. If you need to wash them by hand, then do so. If you need to put them in the dishwasher, then do so. If the dishwasher is full and clean then unload the dishwasher and put the bottles in there, or you can wash them by hand. If the dishwasher is full and dirty then run the dishwasher and wash the bottles by hand. This also means that any dishes you use will be expected to be cleaned by you. You are not to leave ANY dirty dishes in the sinks, your space (loft and bedroom), or anywhere else in the house. The dirty diapers are to be kept in a trash can or diaper pail in your space. They are not to be in the trash in the kitchen, or any bathroom. When your diaper pail or diaper trash can is full you will take it to the garage and put in it the garbage can there. You will do your own laundry on specified days. The days will be determined at a later date. This is to ensure that you and Mandy do not clash on laundry schedules.

All of these guidelines will help you learn to become more responsible, independent, and mature. If you do not abide by any or all of the guidelines you will be asked to look for another place to live. This is a trial period. If at any time I or Mandy feel uncomfortable or unsatisfied in our home then you will be asked to leave.

If you feel that you cannot follow any of these guidelines feel free to ask questions and perhaps we can come up with a compromise. If you move out, and then decide to move back in these guidelines will be enforced.

A Stressful Life...

The title says it all... Lol...

Paul and I had a meeting with Sally to talk to her about how we should handle Jen being pregnant and her living with us in the new house. The meeting was very productive. I'll post what Sally told us, and then what we told Jen. The talk went good. And Jen agreed with everything, for now anyways.

Jen's been pretty stressed out this weekend. Nancy is giving her alot of shit. Nancy calls her like 12 times a day to make sure Jen is eating right and taking her vitamins. It's driving Jen crazy. Nancy is also pushing Jen to marry Eric... which Jen obviously does NOT want to do.

Eric has started saying that maybe the baby isn't his because she met with Scott on Friday night and they went to Big Boy or something for ice cream. For crying out loud, Scott's gf and their baby was with them... So now Eric thinks the baby is Scotts. How freaking crazy is that?!?!?! Eric is totaly irresponsibly and stupid... you can't have a real conversation with him.. unless it's about cars or something... it's weird.

Anyways, on Friday I took Jen to the health department and got her straight medicaid. So now Jen doesn't have to pay anything. Cause she really can't afford it and we sure as hell aren't paying for it. She has her frist dr.'s appointment on Wednesday and asked me to go with her, so I took the day off and am going to the dr.'s appointment with her. Hopefully we'll find out the sex of the baby...

We went to the house and all the drywall is done... it's so cool to see walls. Before you could look into the other rooms from one room and you could even see upstairs from the first floor. Now you can't. It's soooooo freaking cool. I'll post pictures. We also have half the siding. It's really cool!!!

It's been really hot here. Like in the 90's. It's crazy. I hate it. The only thing I like about it is that I can get a tan and go swimming.

Anyways, I'm all stressed out... this whole baby thing is stressing me out because I know Eric isn't going to stick around, I know Nancy is most likely going to move to MI and try to take over Jens life and that will drive her crazy, and I don't think Jen will be able to handle the baby... it's sooo stressful... And I miss Nathan!! Thank goodness he comes back tomorrow!!!!

Paul is my rock though. I love him!!!!

We have Insulation!!

We went up to the house yesterday and saw that they have the insulation up. I forgot to take the camera with us so hopefully I can get pics before they dry wall... but if not oh well... It's so cool. The attic is much cooler too. The house even sounds different with the insulation up. We're so anxious to get moved in and start our lives together. Paul and I laid in bed for over an hour last night talking about the house before we fell asleep... it's just so exciting... And very new to me. I've always lived in run down crappy rental houses or trailers. Altho the trailer that I grew up in AR wasn't that bad. However, it was also the trailer the I was brought home from the hospital when I was born... so it's old... But not too bad I guess... It's exciting to have something new and it our own. I think Jen has decided to take the attic (with the baby of course) since she sees that its not that hot up there. I really hope she does, if she doesn't I'm going to make her. Because if she doesn't then we'll hear the baby cry all night and we don't want to that. So she either takes the attic or will have to move out. Those are her choices... unless it's too hot of course. I'm not going to make her the baby live up there if it's scorching. But somehow I doubt it will be.

Anyways, Thursday wasn't too bad at work. Aiden slept alot and didn't pee or puke on me... so all in all it was good... Lol...

On Friday I cleaned... as usual. I also had to bake two cakes. One for Cierra's 14th bday dinner and one for Mike's sister Ree... She is such a pain in the ass... so annoying and over bearing. But she can also be nice and loveable too... when shes not wasted... which isn't very often. Anyways she said that I owed her a cake from LAST July for her bday... Because I brought Kelly one last year and didn't bake one for Ree so everytime I've seen her it's been hell on earth cause she wants the cake. However, this is the second one I've baked her. The first one she never got. She did call and thank me for the cake when she got it this time so that was nice...

Anyways, We went to Beth's for Cierra's 14th bday party. It wasn't much. Just Beth, Mike, Cierra, Fay, Jerry, Shena, Paul and Me. We ordered pizza. However, we were like 40 mintues late because 696 was closed from 94 to Van Dyke... which on the news it said it was only closed from 94 to Groesbeck. So we took Groesbeck to 696 but wound up taking the service drive all the way to Van Dyke before we could get on 696. And then when we did get on it was one lane till almost 75... it was horrible... Lol... But we made it there... After we left Beth's we went to the house.

Today we went to Fay and Jerry's and had lunch. Fay and I lounged in the pool for about an house. Belinda was there for a while... she's freaking crazy... not to mention strung out on drugs... She didn't remember that SHE not Tim sent us a 50 dollar check for our wedding. She said the didn't have our addresss and was going to send us another check. Before we realized what she was talking about. Unfortunalty Paul told her that she already sent us something.. I wasn't going to say anything and get extra money out of her... If she's too freakin stoned off heroin to know she sent us money let her send us more... Lol...

We went to Home Depot today and agreed on shades for the house. They're really cool... They're like shades and blinds in one. You can open the blinds part but leave the shade down... The blinds (cloth btw) are in between the shades... it's really cool... and we like them so that's even better. Paul wanted blinds, I wanted shades, and we found the perfect compormise!!!

Anyways, not much else is going on. I've been cleaning tonight. I figured I better clean out the fish tank cause when its so green you can't see the fish... that can't be good. Lol... I did the dishes, cleaned out the litter box... It was HORRIBLE.. with the dry cat food he's been drinking more water, therefore going pee more often... it was like a litter box full of amonia... Ugh.. I couldn't breathe. I also did laundry...

I'm gonna go...

We can't wait to move into our house... I HATE WAITING!!!!!

Exhausted...

Let's see... it's been about a week since my last entry so let me catch up on everything.

We had the walk through. It wasn't that exciting. We decided not to have the egress window put in the basement. To save money and we don't want to mess with the foundation. The guy we met with suggested that we shouldn't mess with the foundation, so we won't. Lol...

I didn't have my pap because I was on my period. So she did the breast check and gave me a three month bypass. So I get pills for 3 months but have to have my pap before I run out.

Jen's getting a litlle bigger. And she got the insurance. However, to get the insurance she had to use Eric's dads income (because paul makes to much). And she can't put Eric on the birth certificate, so Eric is pissed about that. Eric says that if he can't be on the birth certificate then he doesn't want to be in the room while she gives labor. He also suggested they get married but she turned him down. So Eric told her not to come over today, so she said okay. So I guess they're fighting. I dunno....

Today was the first day back to work after a long weekend. I am so tired. And Aiden wasn't thrilled to see me at all... He got to spend 5 days with his mom and dad and then I'm back. That kid is smart, he knows that when I walk in Jessie's leaving, and he doesn't like that at all... Mostly because Jessie carries him ALL THE TIME... it's crazy... but oh well... I was peed on, spit up on twice, screamed at, cried at... it was hell on earth... Lol...

Nathan is in WA getting married and I miss talking to him. He's such a good friend and I feel like I can talk to him about anything... I can't wait for him to get back. I'm happy for him though, and I hope is wedding and honeymoon is everything him and Jenn wants. He's been able to get online a couple times, but not much... I like the short times that he's on... it's nice talking to him... and a change from my day...

We didn't do much over the long weekend... it was very relaxing. On Saturday we went to Fay and Jerry's and hung out in the pool. Beth and Bobby were there too. Then we went to Beth's house that night and hung out. On Sunday we went to Beth's again and layed around. We watched "Freedomland" it was an okay movie.... nothing special. On Monday.... hmm what'd we do?!?! Just sat around. We went up to the house and signed the papers saying we wanted to take the egress window off the house. Jen's been home early every night and we've been playing 31 with her. She likes and Paul and I like spending the time with her....

Not much else is going on... Just tired and not looking foward to tomorrow!! Lol... it's my long day... 730-630 UGH!!!

I love Paul!!!

Oh yea, we made love Sunday night and Monday. It was awesome!!! Man I love him so much. I can't imagine what I would do without him... I would go crazy... well maybe not but it wouldn't be easy. He makes me soo happy. When I hear his voice on the phone or see him walk in the door from work I just smile and smile... it's so good to see him after a day at work... or when he gets home from work.... Love him to death!!!

Jen's Pregnant...

Jen came home early today and said "Guess what I found out today? I'm pregnant." Somehow I don't believe that she just found out today. She's three months along... it doesn't make sense that she just found out today... but oh well... She had her ultra sound today, it's too early to tell the sex of the baby tho. They said she's due on Jan 5 or something like that. She's really excited about it, and we're excited for her. She's totally paying for everything herself... with Eric's help of course. Good thing we're getting a big house.

Anyways, enough on that...

I've decided that I want to be a 3rd grade teacher. At the wedding my dad told Momma that he would pay for my college, so that's cool. I'm going to look into it and see if I can get into OU with a GED, and if I can then I'll get my GED and hopefully start in the January semester. I want to start out taking one class for a while and then increase it from there. I know it'll take a while, but I still want to work and have kids, so that's cool....

Not much else is going on.... Beth turned 40 on Monday...

I have to go tomorrow for my annual pap smear... UGH!!! I am totally not looking foward to it.

We also have our first walk through tomorrow... YAY!!! I am totally looking foward to that!!!! It's so exciting... I met with the cable guy yesterday right after they layed the basement... it was really cool just to be there and see all the progress they've done... They have the roof on and the electrical in... it's sooooo coooooolllll!!!!

I got back in touch with Bethany the other day. I found her on MySpace... It's so cool to talk to her again after so long. She has a steady bf , Chad, and says that she's in love. She'll start her senior yr of college in August and is majoring in Mechanical Engineering... I knew she'd do something like that... It think it's in the her families blood or something... Lol.... Anyways, it was really good to talk to her.

Stephanie had her 16th bday party over the weekend... Of course we weren't invited, Melonies too afraid we'll bring up all the money she owes us in front of Scott... LOL!! Anyways, they got her an Audi TT. Can you believe that... Actually I'm surprised it's not a BMW or Mercedes...

Not much else going on, just working as usual...

Weekend...

Okay, so I don't exactly remember what I did on Friday... Hmmm... Lemme think... nope still don't remember... We probably sat at home and watched movies... Don't remember what movies tho... Lol...

Saturday was a fun day. We went to Beth's for Father's Day and Graduation. Jen had to work tho, so she couldn't come. We had alot of fun tho. Just sat around and talked. I brought the laptop and home books so everyone could see pictures and Fay could read the books. And Tim came. That was nice, we haven't seen him since Thanksgiving because of Shena.

After Fay, Jerry, Tim, and Cierra left Beth, Mike, Paul, and me went down to Bell Isle. It was so fun. We just sat there by the lake and talked for a while... laughed alot!! They are so much fun, and always make me laugh. Then we kinda cruised around Bell Isle for a while and then people watched. We saw one guy that has the Palace in the bed of his truck. It was totally awesome. Bet that cost him a ton.

Anyways, We asked Tim if he would/could do the cable and phone lines in our house. He said he would. We have to call him Friday so he can go see the house and see what all needs to be done. Paul also has to call Amherst and make sure that we can have Tim do it since he's not associated with the superintendent. Hopefully its not a problem, because if he does it it's only 100 bucks, if we have the other guy do it its around 350.

Paul also had to sign the mortgage papers today at Leon's. How exciting!!!

Amherst also got our commitment letter.

I got my new phone today. Tomorrow after work I'm going to go get it programmed so I can use it. I love it.. .its sooo light. Lol... I get excited over the littlest things...

Aiden was a freaking bear today. All he did was cry allllll day. It was crazy. I am so tired and worn out it's not even funny. I think he's cutting a tooth... Hopefully it's in by tomorrow because I really don't want to have to deal with that again...

I ordered for Jen's graduation photos. Hopefully they come soon.

Fay's birthday is tomorrow.

I have to go to the dr. next week for my yearly pap... Ugh... Not looking foward to that... Not looking foward to that at all. I hate those damn paps... they're so uncomfy. But I have to in order to get more pills... I'm almost out.

Not much else is going on... that I can think of anyways, I'm a little scatter brained today.

Oh yea, we made love on Sunday... It was great...

I love Paul!!!

Hey.

We went to the house on Tuesday and changed our tile. I thought the original we picked out would look to busy for such a large are - the foyer, laundry room, powder room, and grade door. So we picked a different one. While we were there they said that it'll be a couple more weeks before we have our first walk through. And that August 24 is the date they are "shooting for", not a definite date... That made me a lilttle upset, but that's okay, I'll live.

I've been working, of course. Today I went to Wal-Mart and Kroger and did our monthly shopping. We still have to order Jen's graduation photos, and we HAVE to get my dress cleaned and preserved this week. We're not looking foward to that, everything costs money, lots and lots of money... it sucks...

Not much else is going on. Just trying to relax and breath! lol...

I think I might go to the pool tonight while Paul goes for his walk. I would like to do some swimming, I haven't gone yet this year.

I got my new ATM card with my new name on it about a week ago. It looks so cool... Lol... I know I'm weird.

We're watching AMC right now. Greg is burried alive and someone is talking to him with a weird voice. Jeff is back in PV to tell Josh the truth. Jonathon is back to normal, but made Erin promise she won't tell Lily.

I love Paul!!!

Nancy's Gone!!!

Well this weekend wasn't so bad... considering Nancy was here... Lol

Nancy got here on Sunday. And things went pretty good. Last night when we went out to eat after Jens Graduation... Nancy thought it was soo hilarious that the waitress called Paul my dad (which it is funny and isn't the first time its happened). But after we were leaving she went up to waitress actually told her it was funny and that she agreed. Then Jen told us that Nancy thinks Genette's miscarraige was Paul's baby. First of all she had the miscarriage in like '81 so it couldn't have been Pauls.. second of all... why the hell does it matter... so what if they did have a kid together... so what if they did have a miscarraige!?!? Then Jen said Nancy asked if I was pregnant because when we were at the house I was asking about the elementary school... Of course I was asking about the school... We plan on having kids... Nancy told Jen that we shouldn't have kids and that Paul was to old... WTF?!?!? I don't see how us having kids is ANY of her fucking business... She's just fucking crazy... literally... and I'm not just saying that because she's Pauls ex... this crazy lady just lost her job (the 12th job in like 4 years... so she cant keep a job), got evicted from her apartment, and still sent Jen 400 bucks... how freakin crazy is that?!?! Then she was convicted to the mental ward in the hospital under suicide watch because she wouldn't leave her apartment when she got evicted and said she was going to kill herself when they called the cops on her crazy ass.... No wonder Paul grabbed Jen and ran for the hills 15 years ago!!! She's a fucking nut job... It just pisses me off that she thinks she knows everything and what she doesnt know she makes up... and then asks the dumbest questions..... Jen was pretty pissed off at her to for asking stuff like that and not minding her own damn business... Jen yelled at her... Go Jen!! So glad she is gone from my house!!!

Anyways, on a lighter note... Jen graduated last night. It was a good ceremony. The kids with the speeches did good... they were funny...

I told my dad we bought a house. He said that he's going to come up in Sept. and help us build a deck... we'll see if he shows or not... Lol...

We signed the final PA on Monday. All the carpet and counters and flooring is finalized... I can't wait!! It's so exciting...

Paul keeps saying that we need to get a home inspection (another 500 bucks we dont have) However Leon told him that it wasn't really necessary because the house is brand new. I'm trying to talk him out of it. First of all the house will be brand-spankin new... secondly the house is under warranty. So if something does go wrong they'll fix it... Thirdly, Leon said it wasn't necessary.

Anyways, not much else is going on, just been working and trying to avoid Nancy!!! So glad that's over...

I'm trying to get a second job. Part time of course and btwn the hours I work with Aiden. The lady (Kimberly i believe is her name) said she would call me back next week and tell me what days she needs me. If it doesn't interfere with Jessie and Todd then I'm jumping... If it does... then total bummer...

Anyways, I'm gonna go. We're watching AMC and right now it looks like theres about 10 people that are guilty of burrying Dr. Madden alive!!! It's getting good!!!

Our house...

Here is a picture of our house as of May 28, 2006. I can't wait until its done. On Saturday we go to pick out the color of our carpet, counters, etc... I'm looking foward to that.

Oh yea, WE HAVE A HOUSE!

Jen's Prom...

Jen's going to prom tonight. I hope she has fun and doesn't get too drunk. Here's some pics of her in her dress... she looks gorgeous.

I've been working all week. I also need to make a couple phone calls to see if I can get some extra babysitting.

Nancy is getting out of the hospital tomorrow, so she should be able to come to Jen's graduation. She'll be staying with us because she can't afford to stay in a hotel. I'm not looking foward to that, but it shouldn't be too bad because Jen's going to be with her every second that Nancy is home.

Not much else is going on. I'm just watching "Will and Grace" and doing my nails.

WE HAVE A HOUSE!!!!

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I still can't believe we have a house. We have so many ideas on how to arrange it and decorate it... it's so surreal... unbelievable... Weird... lol... I love it!!!

Jen's last day of school was Friday... Yesterday Paul and I talked about what her summer rules are going to be. She has to be home 3 nights a week. Her curfew on weeknights will be midnight and on weekends one a.m. I'm not thrilled about the idea of her coming in after I go to bed, but atleast it's still early enough where I can get up and check the doors after she does come in.

Anyways, Yesterday we went to JC Penny's. I got a nice outfit to wear to Jen's graduation next week. It's beigy colored capris and a cute purple blouse. It looks good. I also got a pair of shorts... Finally! lol... But the seam is coming out on the side so we're going to return them and get a diff pair.

We also went to Art Van and looked at furniture for our new house. We can't agree on anything... Lol... such different tastes. It's funny kinda... I hope its not like that next week when we're picking out carpet colors and everything. Lol...

We went to Fay and Jerry's for the Memorial Day BBQ. It was fun. We pretty much just sat around and talked. Beth and Mike we're there. We're trying to get ahold of Beth right now to see if they're having their BBQ today and what time.

Jessie and Todd locked their keys in their house... I'm the only one with a spare key. So they had to come over and get it... It was quite funny tho. Lol...

Anyways,

WE HAVE A HOUSE!!! WE HAVE A HOUSE!!! WE HAVE A HOUSE!!! WE HAVE A HOUSE!!!AVE A HOUSE!!!

We almost have a house!!!

I've been singing "We almost have a house" almost all night... hehe

We sign the papers tomorrow... I'm so freaking excited!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!

Anyways, Tomorrow is Jen's last day of school... crazy huh... I can't believe she's graduating in a couple weeks... it seems like just yesterday she was stealing smokes from the PDQ in AR with Ashley and Allison... Lol... Weird...

The Pistons are totally kicking ass right now. We're playing Miami again... right now its like 70-55... DEEETROOIIITTT BASKEEEETBALLLLL!!!! Kick some ass Rip.... Show the Heat how we do it!!!

Sorry, I'm a little crazy right now... just realllllly excited about the house.....!!!!!!!

It's been a while....

I know its been a while since my last entry... sorry bout that!

So let's see what is new here.... Hmmmm....

I got my new social security number and drivers liscense. It looks so weird seeing the new name on it. I love it tho!!!

Jen's last day of school is Friday. Her friend Jenny gets here on Thursday. She's going to be staying with us for a couple days until she gets her own place. Whatever...

They no-longer-engaged couple finally backed outta the deal, so we can get the house if we want. However, we found out that we have to put down $5000. We have a meeting with Leon tonight and we're going to see if there's anything he can do abous being able to put less down. If not then we'll just get a house in the neighborhood instead of the perimeter. I just can't wait. It's so exciting.

Hmmm what else is new....

I worked ALL week last week because Janie had surgery. It was a nice pay check but I was exhausted. I'm so glad I finally have a day off... Lol...

It's finally getting warm here... after 2 weeks of rain the sun has finally come out and its warming up.

Okay I can't think of anything else that's going on here.

New name!!!

Well, things have cooled down since my last entry. I know I tend to get a little hormonal around my period, but I'm all better now.

Paul even surprised me with flowers a few days ago. They're very pretty... and are still alive too... Lol... Its a mix of daisys and they look gorgeous.

Anyways, Not much else is new. I've worked alot this week. Thursday through Friday because her friend Janie had surgery. And this coming week I work Mon-Fri with two long days. I'm going to be wiped out next week.

On Wed, the cable guy came and installed cable internet. So we cancelled our SBC. They were charging WAAAYYY too much for a phone we never use, so we decided to go with cable internet. We also got a DVR. It's great. We can record anything we want and then watch it later. We've been doing that with AMC. And then Paul can watch it whenever he wants too, not just at 8 or on Sundays. We love it. I've also been recording all "Golden Girls", "The Nanny", and "Will and Grace".

Paul took half a day off on Friday, and when I got off work at 1:30 we went to SSA and changed my name!!!! Then we went to Secretary of State and got my new drivers liscense. So my new social security card should be here in a few weeks, along with my new drivers liscense... I can't wait. I've signed my new name a few times this past week. When the cable guy was here I signed the stubb with my new name. And then of course when I got my new card and liscense I signed my new name. It's so exciting!!!! It's going to take some getting used to though.

Today we took Fay and Jerry out to see the house we want. They loved it. I can't wait until next weekend when we start all the paper work and stuff... It's going to be so exciting... YAY!!! We also found out that it's only going to cost $5000 to finish the third floor, so we're going to have them do it. It's great... just so exciting!!! I feel all giddy again.... it's all so new...and I have no clue what I'm doing... Thank goodness for Paul, at least he knows what he's doing... Sorta!!! Can't wait!!!

We also took Fay and Jerry to Applebee's for Mother's Day. When we were at Fay and Jerry's Beth came over, so we just sat around and talked for a few hours. It was nice.

Then we came home and watched "The Net 2". It was pretty good.

Anyways, not much else is going... not that I can think of at the moment...

I love Paul!!!

Late night...

I'm posting our emails from today so we can remember when the last was that we had the "I feel neglected" conversation. Because I know we'll have it again in about a 6 months to a year. It totally sucks when I have to say this stuff to Paul...

Anyways, let me set it up. Yesterday I woke up a little depressed, mostly because we haven't made love since our wedding night (April 26). So Paul spent most of the morning holding me and consoling me. Which was nice. Then we went to CVS to print out some of our wedding pictures. I spent WAAAAYYY too much money and half of them didn't come out good, so we cant use them. So I was upset about that too...

Anyways, When we got home from Fay and Jerry's I was okay. And then DH was getting ready to start but Paul and I started fooling around a little, but because the show as starting it didn't go anywhere... and I was really sad and upset about. After GA I went to bed but couldn't sleep. So I started talking to Paul, even though he was sleeping. I was feeling very unappreciated, neglected, and taken for granted, and I told him that.

Eventually I calmed down around midnight. But was still upset because we hadnt made love. He started holding me, and then I started rubbing his chest. I wanted him so bad that I was shaking... it was almost like and urgency... I needed him. I needed to feel him inside of me, to know that we were still connected on some level, I guess. So we made, what is in my opinion, very desperate love. I couldn't get enough of him. It went on for about an hour, and I loved every second of it. When he started to pull out I started to cry though. I never wanted it to stop. We cleaned up and then went to sleep.

This morning I woke up feeling really bad for keeping him awake until one. I knew he would be really tired today so I emailed him... Here are the emails that went back and forth for a little while....

Here's the first email I sent him :

Lugg,

I was just writing to see how your doing. I'm doing
okay. I've been cleaning and doing laundry since I
woke up at 10. It's pretty nice outside today. I hope
your day is going okay, and I am so sorry about last
night. I just feel... neglected I guess. I know we
have this talk a few times a year, and maybe I should
just get over feeling this way... maybe I should just
get used to it. So I won't mention the next time I
feel like this, so we dont' have to go through what we
went through last night. Thank you for making love to
me though. It was great. I just wish you could do that
on a semi-regular basis... but I don't want you to
have to "try" to make love to me. I just want you to
want to make love to me and then do it.

I also wanted to tell you that I made it to the really
really hard (eye ball) level on dr. sloth. I did
somewhat okay... managed to kill about 3 of the
eyeballs... it's hard though.

Anyways, I also wanted to remind you to call DHL for
the keyboard pick up.

I better let you get back to work, I've taken enough
time outta your work day. Call me sometime. I will
talk to you later.

I love you with all my heart and am so happy that I
married you!!!

Love always,

Mrs. ******

(Luggett(e))

Heres the email me sent back to me:

Hi Mandy,

My day is going ok today.  And yes, it looks gorgeous outside.  I'd
rather be outside than in here.

And you do have to be sorry about last nite.  You were simply telling
me how you feel and I'm glad you are able to do that. You don't need to
accept "just getting use to it".  I'll try to be more aware of my
actions and be more loving ( which is how I feel anyways ).  I love you
Mandy.

Wow! you killed 3 of the eyeballs?  That's great.  Hope your final
score was good.  Anyway, I best get back to work. 

I Love You.


Love,
Paul ( your husband )

Then I emailed him back :

Paul,

In your email you said "You do have to be sorry about
last night". But it sounds like you meant to say "You
don't have to be sorry about last night". I'm not
sorry about the things I said, I'm sorry about keeping
you up so late. I know you must be really tired. So
for that, I am sorry.

My final score was around 7 billion I believe... so it
wasn't too high, but I sent it anyways.

I love you.

Love,

Mandy

Then he emailed me back with :

Hi Mandy,

Yes, you're right, I mistyped.  And yes, I'm a little tired, but I'll
be ok
today.  Drinking lots of Green Tea.

I hope you have a good day today.  I will talk to you later.  I Love
You.

Love,
Paul

That's the end of our emails. He says he's going to try to be more attentive and not take me for granted anymore. But we have this talk a few times a year, and things are good for a while and then go back to the way they were before the talk. I just hope things STAY good this time. He said he's going to take Friday off. We're going to start getting my name changed, and then take a picnic at Metro Beach. I'm looking forward to that .

Paul still hasn't gotten me a wedding present... 12 days after the wedding and now present. He had 6 months to get me a gift and still hasn't gotten it, that upsets me a liittle. He also said he was going to send me flowers but hasn't done that yet... Oh well...

All this aside, I love the man with all my heart and am so happy that I married him. Other then him not being sensitive towards my wants/needs, we're doing great... everything is great.

We're even getting ready to buy a house!!!! We found the house we want, and I'm giving Paul until May 20th to get used to the idea of buying a house and we're jumping on it. I can't wait... I'm so excited!!!

Anyways, this entry is long, so I'm gonna go.

I love Paul with all my heart!!!!!

First day back...

Well, today was my first day back at work. It was kinda rough because Aiden's schedule is thrown WAY off.. so it's going to take some time to get him back on track... other then that it wasn't a bad day.

Jen still doesn't have her car back from the car wreck she had on the 17th. They said it probably won't be ready until the middle of next week, so we had to pick her up from work... but it wasn't that bad.

I don't have to be to work until 830 tomorrow so I get to sleep in an hour... yay!!!

Anyways, as usualy, I'm really tired, so that's it for now...

I'm married!!!

I'm a married woman now... Woo Hoo!!!

The wedding was gorgeous. The week and a half before the wedding was VERY stressful... dealing with my Mom and Granny was horendous... I did all the flower arrangments.

The wedding itself was beautiful. We got married on the peir over the water...

I'm tired now and don't feel like writing a long entry... Just wanted to check in...

Still can't believe I'm married!!!

Oh yea, and my dad walked me down the aisle... I was so happy that he was there... and he was very happy all night also!!!