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I still can't believe we have a house. We have so many ideas on how to arrange it and decorate it... it's so surreal... unbelievable... Weird... lol... I love it!!!

Jen's last day of school was Friday... Yesterday Paul and I talked about what her summer rules are going to be. She has to be home 3 nights a week. Her curfew on weeknights will be midnight and on weekends one a.m. I'm not thrilled about the idea of her coming in after I go to bed, but atleast it's still early enough where I can get up and check the doors after she does come in.

Anyways, Yesterday we went to JC Penny's. I got a nice outfit to wear to Jen's graduation next week. It's beigy colored capris and a cute purple blouse. It looks good. I also got a pair of shorts... Finally! lol... But the seam is coming out on the side so we're going to return them and get a diff pair.

We also went to Art Van and looked at furniture for our new house. We can't agree on anything... Lol... such different tastes. It's funny kinda... I hope its not like that next week when we're picking out carpet colors and everything. Lol...

We went to Fay and Jerry's for the Memorial Day BBQ. It was fun. We pretty much just sat around and talked. Beth and Mike we're there. We're trying to get ahold of Beth right now to see if they're having their BBQ today and what time.

Jessie and Todd locked their keys in their house... I'm the only one with a spare key. So they had to come over and get it... It was quite funny tho. Lol...

Anyways,

WE HAVE A HOUSE!!! WE HAVE A HOUSE!!! WE HAVE A HOUSE!!! WE HAVE A HOUSE!!!AVE A HOUSE!!!

We almost have a house!!!

I've been singing "We almost have a house" almost all night... hehe

We sign the papers tomorrow... I'm so freaking excited!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!

Anyways, Tomorrow is Jen's last day of school... crazy huh... I can't believe she's graduating in a couple weeks... it seems like just yesterday she was stealing smokes from the PDQ in AR with Ashley and Allison... Lol... Weird...

The Pistons are totally kicking ass right now. We're playing Miami again... right now its like 70-55... DEEETROOIIITTT BASKEEEETBALLLLL!!!! Kick some ass Rip.... Show the Heat how we do it!!!

Sorry, I'm a little crazy right now... just realllllly excited about the house.....!!!!!!!

It's been a while....

I know its been a while since my last entry... sorry bout that!

So let's see what is new here.... Hmmmm....

I got my new social security number and drivers liscense. It looks so weird seeing the new name on it. I love it tho!!!

Jen's last day of school is Friday. Her friend Jenny gets here on Thursday. She's going to be staying with us for a couple days until she gets her own place. Whatever...

They no-longer-engaged couple finally backed outta the deal, so we can get the house if we want. However, we found out that we have to put down $5000. We have a meeting with Leon tonight and we're going to see if there's anything he can do abous being able to put less down. If not then we'll just get a house in the neighborhood instead of the perimeter. I just can't wait. It's so exciting.

Hmmm what else is new....

I worked ALL week last week because Janie had surgery. It was a nice pay check but I was exhausted. I'm so glad I finally have a day off... Lol...

It's finally getting warm here... after 2 weeks of rain the sun has finally come out and its warming up.

Okay I can't think of anything else that's going on here.

New name!!!

Well, things have cooled down since my last entry. I know I tend to get a little hormonal around my period, but I'm all better now.

Paul even surprised me with flowers a few days ago. They're very pretty... and are still alive too... Lol... Its a mix of daisys and they look gorgeous.

Anyways, Not much else is new. I've worked alot this week. Thursday through Friday because her friend Janie had surgery. And this coming week I work Mon-Fri with two long days. I'm going to be wiped out next week.

On Wed, the cable guy came and installed cable internet. So we cancelled our SBC. They were charging WAAAYYY too much for a phone we never use, so we decided to go with cable internet. We also got a DVR. It's great. We can record anything we want and then watch it later. We've been doing that with AMC. And then Paul can watch it whenever he wants too, not just at 8 or on Sundays. We love it. I've also been recording all "Golden Girls", "The Nanny", and "Will and Grace".

Paul took half a day off on Friday, and when I got off work at 1:30 we went to SSA and changed my name!!!! Then we went to Secretary of State and got my new drivers liscense. So my new social security card should be here in a few weeks, along with my new drivers liscense... I can't wait. I've signed my new name a few times this past week. When the cable guy was here I signed the stubb with my new name. And then of course when I got my new card and liscense I signed my new name. It's so exciting!!!! It's going to take some getting used to though.

Today we took Fay and Jerry out to see the house we want. They loved it. I can't wait until next weekend when we start all the paper work and stuff... It's going to be so exciting... YAY!!! We also found out that it's only going to cost $5000 to finish the third floor, so we're going to have them do it. It's great... just so exciting!!! I feel all giddy again.... it's all so new...and I have no clue what I'm doing... Thank goodness for Paul, at least he knows what he's doing... Sorta!!! Can't wait!!!

We also took Fay and Jerry to Applebee's for Mother's Day. When we were at Fay and Jerry's Beth came over, so we just sat around and talked for a few hours. It was nice.

Then we came home and watched "The Net 2". It was pretty good.

Anyways, not much else is going... not that I can think of at the moment...

I love Paul!!!

Late night...

I'm posting our emails from today so we can remember when the last was that we had the "I feel neglected" conversation. Because I know we'll have it again in about a 6 months to a year. It totally sucks when I have to say this stuff to Paul...

Anyways, let me set it up. Yesterday I woke up a little depressed, mostly because we haven't made love since our wedding night (April 26). So Paul spent most of the morning holding me and consoling me. Which was nice. Then we went to CVS to print out some of our wedding pictures. I spent WAAAAYYY too much money and half of them didn't come out good, so we cant use them. So I was upset about that too...

Anyways, When we got home from Fay and Jerry's I was okay. And then DH was getting ready to start but Paul and I started fooling around a little, but because the show as starting it didn't go anywhere... and I was really sad and upset about. After GA I went to bed but couldn't sleep. So I started talking to Paul, even though he was sleeping. I was feeling very unappreciated, neglected, and taken for granted, and I told him that.

Eventually I calmed down around midnight. But was still upset because we hadnt made love. He started holding me, and then I started rubbing his chest. I wanted him so bad that I was shaking... it was almost like and urgency... I needed him. I needed to feel him inside of me, to know that we were still connected on some level, I guess. So we made, what is in my opinion, very desperate love. I couldn't get enough of him. It went on for about an hour, and I loved every second of it. When he started to pull out I started to cry though. I never wanted it to stop. We cleaned up and then went to sleep.

This morning I woke up feeling really bad for keeping him awake until one. I knew he would be really tired today so I emailed him... Here are the emails that went back and forth for a little while....

Here's the first email I sent him :

Lugg,

I was just writing to see how your doing. I'm doing
okay. I've been cleaning and doing laundry since I
woke up at 10. It's pretty nice outside today. I hope
your day is going okay, and I am so sorry about last
night. I just feel... neglected I guess. I know we
have this talk a few times a year, and maybe I should
just get over feeling this way... maybe I should just
get used to it. So I won't mention the next time I
feel like this, so we dont' have to go through what we
went through last night. Thank you for making love to
me though. It was great. I just wish you could do that
on a semi-regular basis... but I don't want you to
have to "try" to make love to me. I just want you to
want to make love to me and then do it.

I also wanted to tell you that I made it to the really
really hard (eye ball) level on dr. sloth. I did
somewhat okay... managed to kill about 3 of the
eyeballs... it's hard though.

Anyways, I also wanted to remind you to call DHL for
the keyboard pick up.

I better let you get back to work, I've taken enough
time outta your work day. Call me sometime. I will
talk to you later.

I love you with all my heart and am so happy that I
married you!!!

Love always,

Mrs. ******

(Luggett(e))

Heres the email me sent back to me:

Hi Mandy,

My day is going ok today.  And yes, it looks gorgeous outside.  I'd
rather be outside than in here.

And you do have to be sorry about last nite.  You were simply telling
me how you feel and I'm glad you are able to do that. You don't need to
accept "just getting use to it".  I'll try to be more aware of my
actions and be more loving ( which is how I feel anyways ).  I love you
Mandy.

Wow! you killed 3 of the eyeballs?  That's great.  Hope your final
score was good.  Anyway, I best get back to work. 

I Love You.


Love,
Paul ( your husband )

Then I emailed him back :

Paul,

In your email you said "You do have to be sorry about
last night". But it sounds like you meant to say "You
don't have to be sorry about last night". I'm not
sorry about the things I said, I'm sorry about keeping
you up so late. I know you must be really tired. So
for that, I am sorry.

My final score was around 7 billion I believe... so it
wasn't too high, but I sent it anyways.

I love you.

Love,

Mandy

Then he emailed me back with :

Hi Mandy,

Yes, you're right, I mistyped.  And yes, I'm a little tired, but I'll
be ok
today.  Drinking lots of Green Tea.

I hope you have a good day today.  I will talk to you later.  I Love
You.

Love,
Paul

That's the end of our emails. He says he's going to try to be more attentive and not take me for granted anymore. But we have this talk a few times a year, and things are good for a while and then go back to the way they were before the talk. I just hope things STAY good this time. He said he's going to take Friday off. We're going to start getting my name changed, and then take a picnic at Metro Beach. I'm looking forward to that .

Paul still hasn't gotten me a wedding present... 12 days after the wedding and now present. He had 6 months to get me a gift and still hasn't gotten it, that upsets me a liittle. He also said he was going to send me flowers but hasn't done that yet... Oh well...

All this aside, I love the man with all my heart and am so happy that I married him. Other then him not being sensitive towards my wants/needs, we're doing great... everything is great.

We're even getting ready to buy a house!!!! We found the house we want, and I'm giving Paul until May 20th to get used to the idea of buying a house and we're jumping on it. I can't wait... I'm so excited!!!

Anyways, this entry is long, so I'm gonna go.

I love Paul with all my heart!!!!!

First day back...

Well, today was my first day back at work. It was kinda rough because Aiden's schedule is thrown WAY off.. so it's going to take some time to get him back on track... other then that it wasn't a bad day.

Jen still doesn't have her car back from the car wreck she had on the 17th. They said it probably won't be ready until the middle of next week, so we had to pick her up from work... but it wasn't that bad.

I don't have to be to work until 830 tomorrow so I get to sleep in an hour... yay!!!

Anyways, as usualy, I'm really tired, so that's it for now...