Goal Planning... GED & Baby

I don't have to work until tonight, so I got out my goal book and was working on it...

I've decided definitly to get my GED. It's $170 and they're testing at the end of February, sometime in March, and twice in May... I talked to Paul and he told me to I should do it. We've decided that I'm going to do the March test. This weekend I want to go get some books and study up a little... It's been a while since I've had to do school work... all subjects at the same time anyways... Lol... So I definitly want to study. I'm excited about it, and a little nervous...

Paul and I also decided that I can stop taking BC in April. I think I may have mentioned this in my last entry, but oh well... I'm saying it again... lol... I'm excited!!! I have to make a dentist appointment though... not at all looking foward to that... Dentists terrify me... literally TERRIFY me!!! I know I'll be okay though. I just need to get a cleaning and make sure that everythings okay... I know I have alot of cavities... And they'll get filled in time, so we'll see... Still not looking foward to it!!!

Not much else is going on, just doing laundry, washing the sheets!! I did like 5 loads of laundry yesterday, so everything is all clean!!!!

I don't have to be at work until 6 tonight... I'll leave around 5... maybe I should leave a littler earlier with rush hour... not sure yet, I'll figue it out... I'm working at Value City at Macomb Mall tonight... It shouldnt be to bad... I hope... I have tomorrow off, but I work for Rene'. And then I work Thursday morning at a CVS in Lake Orion... and Friday I work at Seflridge... looking foward to that... It should be interesting!!!

Love my husband still... more then I did 5 years ago... We've been through so much together. We respect and support each other to no end... It's absolutly amazing!!! We have a date tomorrow night to make love... Kinda sucks that we have to plan a day... but at least we're still making love every once in a while... LOL!!!

LOVE HIM LOVE HIM LOVE HIM!!!!

My Life...

My life has turned into work... Lol... But ya know what? I really don't mind. It's weird... I actually enjoy the work, but that's not to say that it isnt frustrating... Like today... I had to get up at 4:20 this morning to be at the carpool at 520... But I did okay... I was awake by the time I left the house... I drove to Great Lakes Crossing... We crammed 4 other people in my car... It was funny... But they all fit... Today was frustrating... we did Urban Behavor, and about 90% of the SKUs were faded so we had to punch the SKU numbers in... It took forever. If we didn't have to punch almost every one in, we'd have been done about an hour earlier... but the time wasn't bad. The store started at 6 and I was home around 1130... so not bad... I got my first BIG pay check on Friday... It was nice to see... Makes me feel good...

Haven't seen much of Jen... She takes Jake to Erics parents everyday but only brings him up here when we call and ask her too... I understand that they live like a mile away, but we're only like 5 miles away... She never brings him here... Whatever... He's still cute, and they're doing good from what I understand...

We helped Beth move yesterday... It was tiring, but she's all moved into her house... Her house is so nice, it looks really cozy with all her furniture in there... They all seem to be really happy about it... Mike was home to help move, however Beth is pissed... Mike was on the road with Eddie, helping him drive, for like 2-3 weeks, and Eddie paid him less the a thousand bucks... he definitly should have been paid ALOT more, but of course Mike wouldn't say anything... NO THAT WASN"T A RUN ON SENTENCE... HAHAH...

Anyways, after we helped her move we came home, put on jammies and watched TV and a movie. We got a call from Beth around 730 saying that we had ALL of her pillows in the trunk of our car... I still can't believe that no one remembered to get them out... Lol... So today after we went to Fay and Jerrys we took her the pillows... lol...

I had a good birthday... We drug Beth out with us to Butterflys and played pool for a while, drank a little, and then went back to Beth's apt. and played cards... We got home around 130... it was really nice being able to get out of the house... with me working we actually had the money... it was fun...

Paul and I talked yesterday on the way to Beth's about having a baby... He agrees that I can stop taking BC in April some time - after my doctors appointment, I have to have a pap because my last one came back abnormal, but she said it was most likely stress or the lab made a mistake, they didn't see worried. Plus I was to talk to the doctor and find out what kind of supplements and stuff I should start taking... Etc... I'm really excited... April isn't that far off... We won't TRY to get pregnant for a couple of months, but if it happens then great. If we don't get pregnant by like July/August then we'll start with ovulation tests etc... I told Paul that this means he's going to have to start making love to me more often... Lol... I was just picking, but it's true... We only make love once every couple of weeks, when we start trying to get pregnant...we'll ya'll know how that works... Lol...

I'm still getting my puppy in April... WOO HOO!!!! Lol... I can't wait... I'm so excited...

There's so many things to look foward to in April... stopping BC, puppy, and our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!! How feaking cool is that...we've been married almost a year... it's weird... I still love him as much (if not more) as I did 5 years ago... It's totally awesome being married to you best friend, life long companion, and the one that completes you!!!

The other day Paul stopped at the office and brushed the snow off my car and warmed it up for me... the women in the car couldn't believe he would do that for me... It was on his way home from work so why wouldn't he... I dunno, I guess I'm just lucky to have such a caring man. He may not be romantic but he is caring and loving...

He also vaccumed and straightened the kitchen up for me today, so I don't have so much to do tomorrow... God, I love that man!!!

Tomorrow I have TONS of laundry to do... That's really been slacking since I've been working. And I have to clean the kitchen and the fish tank is getting a little algeafied... Lol... I know, that's not a word, but I just made it one... Ha!

It has been cold and snowing almost every day...I love it, as long as I don't have to drive in it... I drove in it last week, and it wasn't too bad, but I still don't like it. Today while we were at Beth's it started a freakin blizzard outside... In about 5 minutes our car was covered in snow, so we decided to leave before it got too bad.

Right now Paul is watching CNN. I turned it on for him so he wouldn't be bored while I was typing this 20 page entry... Lol... His laptop has crapped out on him, so he can't even play Neopets... poor guy. But I let him use mine of course... They're gonna fix it tomorrow, or just give him a new one since he's supposed to get a new one next month anyways... He'll find out tomorrow...

We got his W2's and the mortgage interest statement, so we're all set to do our taxes. We'll prolly do them after Feb first some time, not sure yet. We've decided to hire someone to do our sod and deck. And we also want to get a new couch set for the living room. Plus I want to set aside about 500 bucks from the refund for our baby, and 500 bucks from his bonus, and about 50 bucks a pay check from me.... I know a baby is going to cost more then that, but it's better then nothing...

Anyways, not much else is going on, that I can think of anyways... So I'm gonna go, cause we're gonna watch a couple of BROTHERS AND SISTERS... lovee that show... But GA is still my favvv!! I'll definitly be in bed early tonight!!!

~~~~~~<3I love my husband<3~~~~~~

Amanda

Work... Work... Work...

Well, I've been working pretty much straight for a week. I like the job though... And the pay isn't bad either... Lol... I've done 3 Macy's, 2 Marshalls, a Childrens Place, a TJ Maxx, and today I did a KMart. My next pay check should be huge... Lol.. my first pay check should arrive tomorrow, but it's only for training and the first 2 Macy's. Can't wait to get my next one... It seems like all I've been doing is working... and sleeping... I'm doing okay with the morning... I just go to bed around 10 and get up at 5... this morning I had to get up at 445 cause the start time was 6... who the hell schedules a store that early... Francise that's who... Lol... She's funny though.

Nancy left... I can't believe how fucking crazy she is. Friday night Paul, Ed, Christine, Jen, and I had to go to Jen's apartment and pretty much run her out of there... She's so crazy... she refused to leave... We told her she had to... She was screaming and yelling all this crazy shit about how Jen should be going to college and not beauty school. she should be getting a degree that she can do something with... yada yada yada... And how Eric is a total loser... Oh yea, she says that Eric is irresponsible because he works two jobs and isn't spending 24/7 with Jacob or cleaning the house or cooking dinner (yada yada yada)... Someone has to pay the freakin bills... Lol...I think Eric is doing the responsible thing... I'm actually surprised he's working two jobs to pay the bills... And then she started in on Paul and I.... How Paul was raping me... Never happened of course... The legal age in MI 17... Yada Yada Yada... How I had a fight with Jen 5 years ago... And look who has the better relationship with her now... I DO, NOT NANCY!!! Like I said... Total NUTTTT Job!!!! She also thinks EVERYONE knew that Jen was pregnant before Jens graduation when Nancy was here... NO ONE KNEW... She was screaming and yelling and once jumped up and looked like she was about to deck Ed... She jumped in front of her and yelled "Get out of his face"... And of course Nancy spewed the normal shit about how Jen doesn't love her and never has... Yada Yada Yada... we're tired of hearing it... When we finally got Nancy to leave she asked to see the baby, and Jen said "no, you've blown that". So we took her to the motel that night, and get this... after Nancy said that Jen never loves her and That Nancy won't call anymore and Jen said okay... Nancy went out and bought Jen a new car seat... Now, another thing... Nancy said she had NOOO money, but yet she sent Michelle 500 bucks, bought her own plane ticket home, and spent about 100 bucks on a car seat for Jen... All Nancy is trying to do is buy Jen's love... It's crazy...

But anyways, enough about Nancy...

Not much else has been going on since I've been working... It's been pretty crazy...

Here's my GORGEOUS Grandson!!!!

Jen and Jakie are doing well. We saw him the other day... everytime we see him he's gotten so big... Lol... God he's cute..

Jen said that Jacob had the hiccups the other day for like 20 minutes and Eric was freaking out... Eric thought he was dieing and wanted to rush him to the ER... Lol... Loving, nervous father... Lol...

Anyways, I've talked enough, time for a smoke and maybe a walk... Maybe we'll walk up and get the mail... Maybe my check came... Maybe Pauls W2 came... Maybe Just Maybe!!!

I love Paul to death... He's been so sweet since I've started working, helping out with the house work, laundry, cooking, etc... it's very nice... Just a loving, caring husband I have... How freakin lucky am I?!?! I'll tell ya!! I'm the luckiest girl in the world!!!!

Love you Paul!!!!

Nancy

Jen just called a few minutes ago and said that Nancy is becoming a big problem. Nancy apparently was yelling at Jen AND Eric last night saying that she wasn't leaving and they couldn't make her. I can't believe Nancy is acting this way... It's so childish!!!

Hopefully Jen calls me back in a few minutes.. She had to go because Aunt Michelle called... I'm sure Aunt Michelle will side with Nancy on this one... They're both insane... Literally!!!

See, It Wasn't Bad!!! Lol

Okay, So I was freaking out over nothing... Lol... As usual!!!

When I left the house to go to work last night I freaking out though... I REALLLY did not want to go. I was about to start crying, gave Paul about 40 good bye hugs (lol), and I was shaking so bad.

When I got to carpool I wasn't exactly sure what to do or who I was looking for, since the carpool was in a major parking lot. I saw one lady sitting in her car, and she looked like she was with RGIS so I tentativly aproached. Her name is Bobbie and yes, she does work with RGIS. Last night was her second night, so I carpooled to Port Huron with her, Gabrielle, Bill, and Kellie... No car full of smelly men... Lol...

Work wasn't that bad. It was a little confusing in the back room when they're trying to get everything set up, but on the floor wasn't that bad. I was in womens clothing at Macy's in Port Huron. I still can't believe my first store was a HUUGEE one... I didnt do that bad.... My first couple racks I messed up but Linda (the trainer) helped me get through them. After that it was a breeze.

My average at about 2 a.m. was 356/hr. The goal is 450/hr... I should be there in no time... Considereing average for first night is around 300... Not bad if I do say so myself... Lol...

It was hard, physical work... standing for 7 hours... I got to sit down for a few of the sweater shelves... but just a couple...

We didn't clock out until 4:10 a.m. and I didn't get home until a little after 5... Fortunatly, Paul was still home... So I got to see him this morning.. YAY!!! I hope that happens tomorrow morning too... So I went to be around 6:30 this morning... It was really weird sleeping during the day... without Paul next to me snoring.. .Lol... Some guy called at 1 looking for James... Wrong number of course... And then RGIS called at 3 and woke me up. They were confirming my schedule and stuff for the next couple of weeks, and ever gave me a some more stores... It's going to be one freaking crazy month!!!

But all in all... It's not that bad!!!

Paul wrote me the sweetest note last night, so I would see it when I got home this morning... Here's what is says:

"Mandy,
I hope you had a good day at work. It takes a lot of courage to do something you've never done before. If it's much too difficult, then it is up to you if you want to continue.
It's strange going to bed without a good night kiss!
I'll see you when you get home!
I love you!
Love,
Paul"


Isn't that sweeeett!?!?! That's my loving husband for ya... I know to most people a new job isn't a big deal... but it is to me... I have some serious anxiety problems when I'm meeting new people to doing new things with new people... But I know I can do it... I did it!!!

I love my husband to death!!!

New Job!!!

Okay, I posted this on my myspave blog last night. I'm just copying and pasting it in here...

UGHHHH... I start my new job in a few hours. I have to be at carpool in about an hour and work starts at 9... I'm freaking out right now... soooo freaking nervous... I don't know any of the ppl I'm going to be working with, AND I have to ride in a car with them... I just know it's going ot be all men... smelly, icky men... UGH... I'm all nerves... Jumpy, shaky, freaking out... I'll prolly go through a whole freakin pack of smokes in the next 20 minutes... Lol....

I know this time tomorrow I'm going to be just fine, I'll be saying "see that was a peice of cake" lol... but I'm not saying that right now... I'm freaking out!!!!

Breath in through the nose, out through the mouth...

These stupid relaxation techniques aren't working!!! They usually do though... guess I'm too wound up!!!

It's all going to be okay... I know that... I keep telling myself that, and so does Paul...

I'll be okay... I'll be okay... I'll be okay...

That's my mantra for tonight...

I'll be okay... I'll be okay... I'll be okay...

WISH ME LUCK!!!