Busy Week

My schedule for next week is filling up quickly. *phew*

Monday - Sally and the girls at Tim Hortons for coffee

Wednesday - Babysit Julia for Toni <3

Thursday - Paul dr. apt. AND BirthNetwork meeting WOOT!

Friday - Heather's Mother Blessing... YAY!!!!!

I'm excited for the upcoming week. I love it when I have things to do! 

Note to self - buy a calendar! *blush* (I have a planner, but not a hanging calendar) 

Hello World

I haven't blogged in a while so here I am. I do keep things updated on Coopers blog though so check there if you'd like. 

Just some highlights-

-Paul had almost 2 weeks off for the holidays. It was great having him home. 

- We are going to marraige counseling, it's fabulous!!! We just wanted to get some communication skills and so far so good!

- Cooper had a FABULOUS first Christmas. 

- The ex is trying to be my "friend" on facebook. I ignored her on myspace so I guess she thought she would try on facebook... that woman is nuts! She only knows I'm on facebook because she STALKS my MIL and SIL's pages. 

- She also tried adding paul on facebook... seriuosly?!?! WTF!!! She's just trying to get info on us... drives me freaking nuts! 

Bath time for Coop's sorry to cut this short!

Migrains Suck

Paul went back to work today. It was horrible having to get up this morning lol. I'd gotten used to being able to sleep till 10 or so cause Paul would get up with Coop AND most of the time feed him in the middle of the night. I did manage to get Coop to sleep till 8, but it was horrible getting up in the middle of the night 3 times again. I got spoiled :( 

And of course I've had a mild migrain all day today. It went away around 5 but is back now. Ugh. Totally sucks. 

cough, cough, sniffle, sniffle

Paul and I are both sick right now. Paul had to stay home from work yesterday and today because he was so sick. Today I woke up sick. I'm just praying Cooper doesn't get this - he's just started with a wet cough in the past 2-3 hours though. 

Paul and I have runny noses, sneezes, sore throat and aches. Yesterday Paul had a fever all day, no fever today though, just extremely tired. Today I woke up with a sore throat, a stuffed up nose, and a killer headache that has lingered all day. 

I've been popping homeopathics, air born, and vita c all day... hoping that at least helps it go away quicker. We'll see. 

I just pray Cooper doesn't get sick. 

Phone Interview

Paul had a phone interview with a company in Cambridge, MA on Tuesday (while we were at the E.R. - he sat in the car for it). They sounded really positive about his job options within the company.

She told him that he was better suited for a job in Charleston, SC!!!! That's where we really want to be!!!! She said that we would hear back from Charleston within a week. I'm trying not to get too excited. But reallllly realllllly want this...

We'll see.

Our first trip to the E.R.

We had to take Cooper to the E.R. yesterday because he was choking.

Read the details here

He is okay!

I'm Scared

Paul will not have a job in 6 months - they are off shoring his job to India. He is training his replacements now. They want the training to be done by Jan 1 but are saying Paul still have 5-6 months left where he is now. Sooo Paul is looking for a job. This is the first time in his professional career that's he's HAD to look for a job. He doesn't even have a resume! Well he does now, he wrote it this weekend, but before Saturday he didn't.

We are most likely going to have to leave MI, which in turn means we will lose the house. We'll have to walk away... This is killing me. I love this house and so does Paul. We finally have a place of our own and have put so much money and time into getting it the way we want and we're most likely going to have to just walk away from it.

So as I said, Paul wrote a resume this weekend and is going to start sending it out. I've found 3 places for him to send it to so far. We're looking into Charleston, South Carolina; Raleigh, North Carolina; Cambrige, MA; Bentonville, AR; etc. Guess which one my mom is voting for?! LOL Of course Bentonville would be Wal-Mart. The only thing with Bentonville is we KNOW he would have to take a 20K paycut but we also know the cost of living is a lot lower there.... It's still scary to think of making 20k less we are used to. Bentonville will be our last resort.

I'm so jealous of Cooper. He has know clue any of this is going on. He gets to live his life, be a baby and has everything he needs and wants with no worries. Awww, to be a kid. I spent so much time trying to grow up to only want to be a kid again!! The irony LOL

Best case - we can stay here, Paul makes the same amount of $$ and we keep the house. (this will NEVER in a million years happen)

So realistically -

Best case - we have to move outta state, Paul makes the same amount and we sell/rent the house

Worts case - we have to move outta state, don't make as much and lose the house

Yea, our choices aren't looking so good. Oh joy... can't wait.

I was tucking Paul into bed just now and he looks at me and says "I hope I can always provide for you and Coop." and started crying.



I was proud of myself for not crying with him and just comforting him but damn that was hard. I don't know how to help him. He's having such a hard time with the work situation. This is the first time in 25 years that he's had to look for a job. He doesn't even have a resume! He's so afraid that Coop and I won't have everything we need. He's worried about not finding a job with equal pay to what he is making now. If he doesn't make what he's making now then we WILL lose the house and that scares and upsets him. If we have to move out of state for work then we'll most likely lose the house - there's no way we can sell our house for what we owe - our only hope of keeping the house would be a renter but the rent would be so high I doubt that would happen. He's also worried about the moving costs if we do have to move.

I said everything I could think of to reassure him that we're just fine and we always will be. I told him that we'll always have everything we need as long as we have him. I told him that I was frustrated because I didn't know how to help him and he started crying again and told me that I was helping him so much just by being here.

I love this man so much and I hate seeing him hurt like this. I don't know that I've ever seen him like this. Sure, I've seen him cry, but nothing that compares to what happened 20 minutes ago. He is such a wonderful husband, father, man. I just wish there was something I could do to take the pain away.

Coop's Blog

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http://raisingbabygreen.blogspot.com/