Spotting...

Spotting while pregnant is terrifying!!! Absolutely, heart stopping, terrifying.

On Friday around noon I went to the bathroom and saw that I was spotting dark brown blood. So I called the doctor and they told me to go straight to the emergency room... We got to the emergency room around 145 and they pretty much took me back right away. I think I only waited for about 3 minutes lol...

So anyways, the doctor asks a lot of questions and they keep calling it a threatened abortion... I really didn't like that term... To me abortion is something you do voluntarily.... I kept thinking of it as a threatend miscarraige.

They ended up giving me an I.V. of course. And then they said they were going to do something so scary to me... that I cried... They put in a Foley Cathater... How scary that was.. It's a tube about the size of my PINKY!!! with a balloon on the end of it so they can inflate my bladder. The purpose of this is so they can do an ultrasound... Apparently when you're this ealy in pregnancy they have to use your full bladder as a reference point to find the baby... I have never felt so much pain as I did when they pulled it out... Now mind you when they put it in it was horrible... but for some reason taking it out was worse.... It was so terrible... I couldn't move for literally 15 minutes and I couldn't stop screaming and moaning...

They never did really tell me what was wrong. Just that I had a 50/50 chance of keeping the baby. And that I am on a week of bedrest... or until my doctor says. They also told me that as of Friday (July 27) I am 6 weeks 3 days pregnant... So I am now 6 weeks 6 days pregnant... that's just a few days shorter then we originally said...

Anyways, so I'm on bed rest... which means I can't do anything... which means I am totally bored out of my mind. But I did discover that you can't watch "Eight Below" when pregnant... unless you want to pretty much cry thro the whole thing... But I'm watching it anyways... and crying like a baby!!! I hope they find the poochies... lol... The movie is almost over so I'm sure they will find them... But 2 have died alreayd... That is very sad... And the main doggy "Mya" is almost dead... She was attacked my a seal...

I have my doctors appointment tomorrow at 9:15 a.m. I am going to have to go by myself cause Paul can't get off work... Which totally sucks and is totally scary... But I'm a big girl... As long as they don't want to do another cathater... lol...

Work has been supportive... But I don't want to go back... It's such a physically demanding job... So I'm gonna talk to the doctor about it...

Anyways, I'm gonna get off of here... Can't think of much else to say... Just a little scared and hoping everything is okay... GUess we'll find out tomorrow...

Aww they found the first dead doggy... Old Jack... He was the first to die cause he wouldn't chew thro his chain... too old i guess...

First Doctors Appointment...

Well, I had today off so I decided to find an OBGYN once and for all... lol... I had decided that I wasn't going to the clinic because the receptionist was so freakin rude and the other place had too many doctors (10) and I want a more personal experience. I don't want to see a different doctor every time I have an appointment...
So I have an appointment tomorrow at 330 with the head nurse for my intake... They will take tons of blood and ask TONS of questions... I'm fine with getting the blood drawn though... For once I don't think it's going to bother me... I'm so excited!!! lol

Our poor fishys have ICK... and man are they icky! lol... So I put some meds in the tank today to try to get rid of it, and it's turned the water blue... looks pretty cool! lol... Hopefully it takes care of the problem...

I took Pebbles to the groomers today and had her trimmed, bathed, nails trimmed, etc.... She looks great..

I went to Barnes and Noble today to get some baby books and walked out with 3 baby books lol... I got Knocked Up by Rebecca Eckler (the movie was hilarius, but I don't know if the movie is based off the book, but its still funny... so is the book). I also got Belly Laughs by Jenny McCarthy and She's having a baby and I'm having a breakdown. What every man should know - and do - when the woman he loves is pregnant. It's looks pretty funny, and Paul's actually reading it, mostly because I'm making him though lol... I am totally crackin up with Belly Laughs it is possibly the funniest book I have ever read... But it's scary to know that stuff will happen to me!!! Yikes!!!

Anyways, I'm getting ready to go to Sally's... We had to find another place to meet because the CoffeeBeanery is closing at 8 during the summer I think... It's crazy... lol

I can't wait to have my husbands baby! It's going to be amazing!

4 weeks 6 days

This is what is on my Fertitlity friend for this week...

Implantation is complete. Your future baby has now reached beneath the lining of your uterus and growth is rapid. Your baby is now called an embryo. The embryo is still about 0.05 inches (1.25mm) long. It is deeply embedded in your uterus.

It is now possible to identify the fold of skin that will become your baby's head. A heart forming plate has developed and the central nervous system, muscles and bone are in the early stages of development. Your baby's heart has started beating. The brain, spine and beginnings of the nervous system are forming.

By the end of this month, your baby will resemble a tiny tadpole, barely the size of a grain of rice. A distinct organization, however, is becoming visible. There is a stripe down the back of the embryo which is curling over to form a groove which will seal up to form the neural tube. This will turn into the spinal cord and brain. The top of the tube is flattening out and expanding to form the front part of the brain.

The placenta, which will provide nourishment to your developing baby later in your pregnancy, is not yet formed. Right now your baby is nourished from you via hundreds of tiny "roots" that cover the amniotic sac. The nourishment is channeled from you to your baby from these roots through a stalk that will become the umbilical cord. The placenta will begin its development this week. It will form in the site that the fertilized egg attached to the lining of your uterus at the time of implantation. A bulge is developing where your baby's heart will be and the blood vessels are growing into place.

I'M PREGNANT!!!

My due date is March 16...

Since I have been charting I know exactly when we conceived... I ovulated on CD 18 ... so June 26... Our baby was concieved on June 26... Which means that our fetus is almost 3 weeks and I am 4 weeks 6 days pregnant... Doctors determine how far along you are by the first day of your last period (June 9).

We are so excited... excited doesn't even describe how we feel... It's amazing... We think it's a boy and are calling him Cooper Alexander... Yep we've named him! lol...

We just found out on Monday (4 days ago) and are way excited... I had been having some cramps so I went to the doctor and they told me that I was definitly pregnant and that the cramps were normal. And that they wanted to do a blood test... So they did... On Wednesday they called and said that my HCG levels were VERY low and that I needed to come in for another test on Thursday. I got a little nervous. And when I went in for my test on Thursday I asked the nurse why we were doing it again and she said "because my levels were low which could mean early pregnancy or a possible miscarraige...".... Well that terrified me to no end... Just the htought of having a miscarriage... I couldn't stop crying... Well today I FINALLY got a hold of the nurse she told me that my levels had gone up...and eveyrthing was okay... I WAS SOOO HAPPY!!!

My levels on Tuesday were 124 and today were 280... It as an amazing feeling when she said that my levels had gone up and everything was fine... I started crying again cause I was so happy...

That was the worse feeling in the world thinking that something was wrong... i was so terrified that I was losing the baby and all I could do was cry... Paul was great at holding me but not that great at comforting... but I was inconsolable... It was good to have him near though.

I won't be going back to that doctors office because the receptionists are total bitches... so rude and just plain mean...

I have another appointment with EastSide Clinics on July 27... .but I'm not sure if I want to keep that one either... I don't know if I want a "clinic" enviroment.... I think I want a regular doctor. I'm not sure... I have plenty of time to think about it I guess...

When I told Momma I was pregnant she was so happy.... So excited...

Granny was thrilled too...

My daddy was shocked and speechless to the point where I thought I had lost the connection... lol... but it was a good speechless... When it finally hit him, the first thing he said was "You better take good care of my grandson!!!" lol... He thinks I'm having a boy... Dr. Mozarus thinks its a boy, I think it's a boy, lol... so we'll see... Can't determine the sex of the baby until around 16 weeks... and since I'm only 4 weeks... theres still a while to wait... I hate the waiting...

Pauls parents were excited... beth was pretty speechless...

Aunt Capri is sending me her "What to Expect When Your Expecting" book... so hopefully that'll be here soon... I'm looking foward to it...

I've been soo tired, but no morning sickness yet... Boobs hurt like crazy though lol...

The cramps are far a few in between now though... but they are normal...

I haven't told work yet... not sure when I will... but I need too soon because I don't want to be lifting all that heavy stuff while pregnant... And I plan on quitting in December... I will not be there for the January rush... And I'm not sure how or when to tell them... Guess I'll figure it out soon...

Wow life changes so fast!!!!

It's been forever since I've blogged.... Geez I can't believe how long it's been.... So much has changed!

-Jen moved in... about a month ago. Her and Eric broke up after he got thrown in jail again. She is doing good in school, and I'm adjusting. Sally has helped me a lot with having her here. Jacob isn't here... He is living with Christine and Ed in Livonia...

- I am now a Team Leader for RGIS... but now I can't figure out how to download my machines lol! Hopefully Francise will help me with that tomorrow.... So far so good...

- For the BIGGEST news ever....


I AM PREGNANT!!!!!!

Chillin

So I have today off, woo hoo!!! I'm just chillin right now. Been doing a little house cleaning... Our house is a disaster... it's not that bad, but it's bad to me lol.. .To other people our house is clean, but not to me! lol... So I've cleaned the kitchen and am not just chillin... Doing laundry, and gonna vacuum later...

I decided to put "Greys Anatomy : Season One" in, and am watching that... It's cool to see the first eppys. Pretty interesting. You forget all those little details.

I had to take Pebbles to the vet today for her dental. I was so sad when I dropped her off, and felt horrible. She was shaking and scared... I feel terrible. I can't pick her up until after 230 today... It's weird not having her here. We've only had her two weeks, but she's a part of the family now. It's weird... very weird...lol

We've decided to do our landscaping this weekend. I'm looking foward to it, but I'm afraid we won't get it all done this weekend... but we'll try.

Beth got a dog. Apparently its a German Shepherd mix and his name is Bronson. We're going to see him on Saturday. That'll be cool. Hopefully Bronson and Pebbles will get along.

HAHAHA The eppy I'm watching now is the one where the rape victim bit off his dick and swallowed it... I love this eppy! lol And then Meredith has to carry his dick around all day lol...

The weather has been nice and warm here. We had a gorgeous weekend. Today is turning out to be pretty nice also. Warm and sunny... Yesterday was warm but raining cats and dogs... and thundering and lightening.

Paul is working on the stairs that lead down to our basement. He's putting Purgo on them... It looks like hardwood and is looking great. But its going to take forever, cause he doesn't get in any hurry. He has 4 stairs partially done...

Anyways, I'm gonna go, not much else is going on... that I can think of anyways. It's quiet not having Pebbles here... miss her and she's only been gone for a few hours. Can't wait to pick her up, but it's going ot be scary too cause she's going to be hurting and groggy from the pain pills...

Happy Anniversary!!!

April 26th was our one year anniversary! I can't believe it's been that long, but at the same time it seems like it's been forever...

Paul and I both took the day off work. We mostly just hung out around the house. We did take Pebbles to the vet at 3.

After the vets we went to see "Vacancy". It was a very good movie, very tense. And after the movie we went out to eat in downtown Mt. Clemes at Luigis. It was good, but expensive.

All in all, we had a good anniversary, didnt do much, but it was nice.

I got Paul a new wallet, a Pink Floyd tshirt, and a framed picture of us at our wedding... the 'You may kiss the bride" picture, for his desk at work.

Paul got me two plants, and the 7th season of Golden Girls. And I consider Pebbles an anniversary gift also.

Not much else has been going on. Just tryin to get Pebbles adjusted to her new home, and the cat adjusted to her... Guess I gotta change the name of my blog.... Right now it's "The Cat, The Husband, and Me!!!"... Gotta think of something clever to change it too! lol... Pebbles is adjusting well. She still has potty accidents at night, which is why we keep her in the powder room with a puppy pad at night and while no one is home.

Been workin, workin, workin! lol

Paul got a 2% raise at work, and also is getting bonus in July I think! So that'll be nice...

I haven't gotten my period yet... I am now 4 days late, but that could be because my cycle has to become regular after getting off the pill... But the other times that I've stopped taking the pill it was right back on... so we'll see. I'm not testing positive on POAS tests. I had some cramping on Thurs (Apr. 26) and a little (very pale pink) spotting on the TP last night when I wiped. Today I thought I was going to get my period cause of the spotting and I had some cramps yesterday, but no period yet... Just some very light brown spotting... So I'm still waiting to see... it could be implantation bleeding and cramping... FINGERS CROSSED!!!

If I'm not pregnant then we're going to try Pre-Seed and I'm going to chart my temps, CM, and OPK's... So we'll see what happens!!!

Grandma McCurley is in the hospital... Now she's the Little Rock hospital with heart problems I guess.... God I hope she's going to be okay! lol

I'm gonna go for now... I bought a cute skirt today... yep i said skirt... And I want to shower and shave so I can wear it tonight... It'll be interesting to see Paul's reaction...

Oh yea... I have my first adjustment on my braces today at 430... Not looking foward to that!!! lol

I'm still in love with husband... even after being married for a year!!!

Pebbles...

On my way home from work on Wednesday (april 25) I decided to stop by the pound. I walked in and asked to see the dogs as I was considering adopting a dog if we found the perfect one for our family... Well I was escorted to the back room, that reeked, and to a row of dog cages, all of which had some kind of bark coming from it. When I finally got my footing back, after the stench almost knocked me over, I started the walk throgh the cages. The first cage on my right appeared to be empty, but all the other were filled with very large, very loud barking dogs. We do not want a large, loud dog. As I was descending down the row, sad that I didn't find the perfect dog, I heard this very meager yelping bark coming from the first cage on the right. Well, I walked over to the cage and there stood a white maltese... I thought "how perfect". So I went out to the car and called Paul. I told him that I think I found the perfect dog for us, her card says she's good with cats, kids, and is potty trained... He wasn't too thrilled but agreed to meet me at the pound. I went back in and told them that I wanted to play with the white maltese to see how we interacted, they told me that if it wasn't raining I could put the leash on her and take her outside, so I did!!! She was soooo happy to be out of that cage, you could just see it in her eyes... pure joy! So we walked around on the grass, and played a little. Then I saw Paul pull up... Needless to say I talked him into letting us get her... So now we have a 9.8 lb, white, maltese dog!!! Her name is Pebbles!!!

So, after we bought her, we had to make the manditory stop at PetCo to get her some dog food. She liked Petco, walking around, meeting new people... It seemed to suit her very well...

On Thursday (april 26) we took her to the vet. I found a vet up in Richmond (not far from our house) and made an appointment. We soon learned that our dog has problems, or as Beth says "You have a handicapped dog" lol... She's not handicapped!!! I swear!!! She just has issues... The pound told us that she had kennel cough, well the vet said that it could be kennel cough, but in Malteses a collapsing trachea is very common, so now it appears that her trachea collapses when she gets too excited or scared... I sounds horrible when this happens, she does this awful wheezing - can't breath - hacking sound... She also has knee problems... Lol... Her back knees tend to pop in and out of socket, which is why she avoids stairs! The vet said that neither the collapsing trachea or the knee thing were major issues.. HOWEVER, her teeth are terrible. So we are now taking her back to the vet on May 10 to have her teeth cleaned, and some extractions done.. this is going to cost around $300... But something that has to be done, if left unattended then the disease in her teeth could travel to her blood, and either be life threatening, or end up costing HUNDREDS more then a dental! lol... so we're having that done on May 10...

Now I hope that you haven't forgot about the cat through all of this... Yes, we have a cat... a very large cat... Now remember, Pebbles weighs 9.8 lbs.... Precious weighs roughly 23 lbs!!! lol... that's a big difference!!!

When we brought Pebbles home, Precious was none to thrilled. Precious took off running to the basement, and there he stayed until Friday afternoon!!! So for around 36 hours Precious locked himself in the basement and refused to come up stairs... Also, Precious wouldn't eat... Not wet food, not dry food... it was crazy!! Precious wouldn't come to us for petting, but didn't pull away when we went to pet him, and we went to pet him a lot... We wanted to let him know that we hadn't forgotten about him, and we still loved him... Well on Friday morning we went down into the basement and Precious had thrown up about 5 times... We started worrying. Paul decided to work from home Friday so he could keep and eye on the cat, to make sure he was okay. Precious ended up throwing up again, but it was like pure water. So when I got off work, I called the cat vet and talked to them, of course they said it was just because of the dog, but I was worried about him not eating and throwin up. So I made an appointment for 2. Well, when I got home the cat was upstairs with Paul, laying on the dining room floor, soakin up the rays... So that was a big improvement. So I called and cancelled the appointment. Precious has finally come upstairs and is willing to stay up. But he won't go in the living room, or get on the couch yet... which is where the dog always is... I know it's going to take time, but for the day and a half that Precious was in the basement, it broke my heart... I couldn't stand it...

Not to mention Paul stressing out about it... I had to work on Wed. night, which meant that Paul was alone with Pebbles... Paul was so stressed out about that... And he's still a little stressed out by the dog, but not nearly as much as he was... he's getting a little bit better.... He pets Pebbles... This is what he did when we got the cat, and now he loves the cat to death, so it's just a matter of time until he loves Pebbels to death too. I can already see/feel the love he has for Pebbles... LOL.. but if you asked him, he'd say he's still stressed out about the dog...lol

Pebbles doesn't care too much for baths... but she lets you bathe her for the most part. But ocassionally she tries to get out of the tub, and she doesn't care to be blow dried or brushed, so it'll be interesting to see how she does on Friday at the groomers! lol... She has her grooming appt on Friday the 4th at 4 pm... And her dental on May 10th... I have to drop her off at 8:30 and pick her up in the afternoon... That's gonna be sad..

I just gave her a bath, and I noticed a HUGE blood red spot on her chest... It's HUGE... I don't know if it's just her skin color, cause it doesn't seem to be bothering her, but it doesn't look good. The vet didn't catch it the other day, so I don't know if I should call the vet and ask about it, and possibly take her back in, or wait until the 10th, but that's a ways off... Not sure what to do... I'll prolly call the vet tomorrow and talk to someone about it, and see if they think I should bring her in or not... So we'll see...

Well, it took me all day to write this entry, as I kept getting interupted... but I think I've finally finished it...

Pebbles is so pretty when she all clean, and shiny, and very white!!! Gorgeous!!!

"Wanna help me in the sheets?"

Okay, so I like literally just walked in the door, and because my life is so sad and boring I just had to post what happened today at work... Okay, so I didn't just walk in the door, I went to the bathroom and changed... but I've only been home for like 10 minutes...

Anyways.

We did a SuperK today out in Bloomfield Hills, nice one too... I was working with usual people, mainly Tom and I stuck together. Well the first funny thing that was funny is that we were in HBA (health and beauty aids) doing cosmetics. Well, I was doing all the lipsticks and when I would pull them out they were stuck together by their price tags... usually two at a time. But I pulled one group out where 3 were stuck together and I told Tom (who was right next to me) "look at this" he goes "ohh a threesome, nice" lol .... And we started joking about it, and I pulled another one out that was just two, and said "look a twosome" he said "naw, the threesome is the only way to go" LOL... At this point Lauren (in the same aisle as us) says "What the hell are ya'll talking about". Tom and I started busting up laughing and he said "Well, the word threesome sure did get your attention!" lol... More laughter... it was funny! you had to be there!!

Anyways. The most funny part was....

We were in domestics, bedding, and I was all done with my aisles so I was looking for open areas and I saw Tom on a wall of sheets that were AutoScan and when he saw me he says "Wanna help me in the sheets" I started busting up laughing and said "It might be kinda fun" lol!! OMG it was so funny we laughed about that all day...

So we're at lunch in the SuperK breakroom (they served us pizza, very nice of them. Thank you!) and the table was full and Tom came in. Pete told Tom to grab a chair and bring it over and Ollie (i believe was the one) said "No, Tom has to sit on Amanda's lap." I said "Why not he already tried to get me in the sheets". Everyone started laughing and then it hit them... "wait, what is she talking about " LOL So then Tom had to tell them what he said to me earlier! lol... Of course every one picked on us, and I started blushing...

Well, then I called Paul... while I was still at the table with everyone and was talking to him. Tom said "Is that your husband? Let me talk to him"... So I handed him the phone, Tom introduced himself to Paul and of course Paul said something like "Hi Tom, I've heard all about you" (LOL). Then Tom proceeded to tell Paul that he tried to get me in the sheets earlier... Well, of course Paul didn't get what he was saying... so we all laughed about that too... So now I gotta fill Paul in when he gets home, cause I think he was like "Well, yea she helped you in the sheets, she's supposed to, it's her job to do inventory" lol... Something like that!!! So then of course everyone laughed about how Paul didn't get it... lol

I'm not sure that this is as funny if you're reading it, maybe it was one of those "You had to be there" moments, cause it was frikkin hilarious today... Tom and I had a ball today...

I like Tom a lot, he's a great guy, and a lot of fun to talk to... And since I like 'em old... hehe!!! I'm kidding I'm kidding!!! He's not that old... prolly around Paul's age! lol...

Maybe I should take him up on the offer... Again... kidding!!! Might be fun though!!!

Naw, I love Paul, even if we do have our issues. We always work it out and things get back to normal after a while!!!

Tomorrow Tom, Ollie, and I are carpooling to the store cause I don't wanna drive that far. We're meeting at the office at like 620 I think for a 7 start... Should be an interesting ride, they both like to pick on me A LOT!!! But it's fun!

Fingers Crosed!!!

So, we've been doing well on BDing (Baby dancing) every couple of days... however last week we didn't do so well... Went almost a week... And I most likely ovulated last week... I just hope the one day that we did BD it worked... Now the waiting game is happening... If I'm not PG then I should get AF on April 25th or 26th (our one year anniversary)! God I hope I dont get AF!!! It would be totally awesome to tell Paul that we're pregnant on our one year anniversary! How cool would that be?!!? lol So I have my fingers crossed!!! But not my leggss!! HAHA! Couldn't resist!!

I stopped looking at names, cause the list is already too long! So I'm going to stick with the names we have for now, unless I come across a totally rad name... lol

Paul's birthday was Friday... It was fun. He took half a day off, and worked from home the other half. I had to work Friday, but I was home by 1... I got him 2 books' an astrology one and a positive thinking on, AND and $20 gift card for Starbucks...(He called me at 11 and told me he was on his way to Starbucks to get a mocha... I think he likes his gift card! lol..)

When I got home from work we went to Ikea... Well, first we went to Chilis to eat (which is in front of Ikea). Damn it's a long drive there... About an hour... 94 to 696 to 275 to Ford Rd... It's crazy!! but worth the drive...

We got a bunch of pics... two for the attic, two for the living room, and one for the bedroom. We also got me a dresser...I love it, and it looks great... One of the pics is hanging above it and totally looks great!!! lol... We want to get Paul a dresser that matches it, and the bed that matches too! We already have one of the nightstands (Got it the last time we went there). We also got another night stand like the one in the bedroom, but we put it in the attic, and it looks great!!! Oh yea, and we got another cool little lamp for the attic...and a LARGE lamp (like the little one) and put it in the basement.... It looks great!! lol

On Saturday I worked (at the OU bookstore). We had Paul's Bday dinner at 5... Jen and Jacob came and so did Fay and Jerry... We ended up babysitting Saturday night and took him over to Beth's with us... He was really good, slept all night!!! Which was really good!!! lol

Yesterday we went to Fay and Jerry's, had lunch and played 31.

When we left Fay and Jerry's we went to the Dollar Tree and I got some pregnancy tests and ovulations tests (Just in case I don't get pregnant this month). If I don't get pregnant this month then I'm going to start charting... taking my BBT, checking for EWCM, and taking ovulation tests... Also I want to get some PreSeed if Aunt Flo shows her ugly head this month...

Been emailing Jess a lot... .I had him on block for a little bit without realizing it lol... Oooppps! lol.. I thought he was just busy, and that's why he hadn't emailed me... but he called me yesterday and told me he'd been emailing me... so when I checked my blocked list... there he was! lol.. So I unblocked him!!! lol

It was good hearing from him yesterday! The caller I.D. was weird though... Just "2223" lol

Gonna send him a package this weekend... Got him some body wash and a loufa sponge... and some other things...

Talked to Aunt Shirley Saturday, they're doing good. I get the feeling that Uncle Lee isn't that great... But I've always known that... hope he's gonna be okay!

Sarahs pregnant... or so she says.... I'll believe it when I see it... that girl has lied so much. I hope she's gotten her act together... She claims to.. She told Granny that her new beau is great, treats her right, works and makes good money, etc. Hope it works out for her!

Not much else is going on... Just obsessed with getting pregnant!!!

Going to see Sally tonight, haven't seen her in a while as she was on vacation in FL. Glad to know she's back... Been itching to go see her... see if I can get over this obsession... Need to relax, put my faith in God, and just let it happen... Easier said then done!! lol

Getting Pregnant!!!

So, we've officially started trying to get pregnant... I stopped birth control last Wednesday (March 28). We're trying to have sex once every 2-3 days, since sperm can live in the body for 2-3 days.

I went to the Gynecologist today and got a prescribtion for pre-natal vitamins... Gonna pick that up in a few hours.. Had a pap, everything looks good on the outside... Should have the test results back in a week or so... I can't imagine anything being wrong... nothing ever has been... didn't like the pap though, not looking foward to when I am pregnant, and always being checked down there and such... Aww the wonders of being female!! lol

We've (I've) already made a list of names... boy and girl names... and even found their meanings... I'll post that now!! It'll be interesting in a few years to look back and see the first names on the list... We've already taken some names off the list because either one of us didn't like them, or the meaning... So we'll see what we come up with in the end!

BABY NAMES

April 2007

- green names are still contenders
- red names have already been removed from the list... but I wanted to post them anyways

Brielle - Girl, Hebrew meaning “Gift of God”

Cadence - Girl, English meaning “Rhythm”

Madison - Girl or Boy, English meaning “Son of Maud”, “Son of Matthew” (the more I saw it the less I liked it)

Brooke - Girl, English meaning “Brook”, “Stream”

Aurora - Girl, Latin meaning “Dawn”

Olivia - Girl, English meaning “Elf Army”, Latin meaning “Olive” (I didn't like the meaning)

Arabella - Girl, English, Scottish, Celtic (Paul doesn't like it)

Bianca - Girl, Italian meaning “White or Fair”

Willow - Girl, English meaning “Willow Tree” (Paul didn't like it)

Heaven - Girl, English meaning “Heaven” (Paul didn't like it)

Melody - Girl, Greek meaning “Melody” (Paul didn't like it)

Jordan - Girl, Hebrew meaning “Descend/ Flow Down”

Rayne - Girl, French meaning “Queen” English meaning “Rain”

Danielle - Girl, Hebrew meaning “God is my Judge”

Addison - Girl, English meaning “Son of Adam”, Many cities in the USA, a disease (We didn't like that "Addison" is a disease... lol)

Cooper - Boy, English meaning “Barrel Maker” (I don't care for the meaning, but I'm leaving it on the list beacause I love it!!!)

Ethan - Boy, Hebrew meaning “Strong, firm, impetuous, optimistic, solid, enduring, permanent”

Braden - Boy, English meaning “Broad, wide”

Ashton - Boy, English meaning “Settlement in an ash tree grove”

Sebastian - Boy, Spanish

Cole - Boy, English meaning “Coal, Dark One” (Don't like the meaning)

Matthew - Boy, Hebrew meaning “Gift of God”

Connor - Boy, Gaelic meaning “Lover of hounds, hound nobleman” (Don't like the meaning)

Joshua - Boy, Hebrew meaning “God Rescues”

Caleb - Boy, “dog”, Hebrew meaning “Heart”

Bailey - Both, English meaning “Bailiff” (Paul doesn't like it, and I don't like the meaning)

Abram - Boy, Hebrew meaning “Exalted father, High father”

Dakota - Both, Native American meaning “The Allies”

Now for work related crap...

I've been working alot... But I've been doing that damn testing on those damn new machines... I really like the new machines... But on Wednesday I had to drive 65 miles for 2 hours of work... I pretty much worked for free... And on Tuesday I worked an hour and a half on the testing (Of course got paid 2 hours) when I could have been in a KMart and worked 6 hours... Kinda pisses me off... So the next time they ask me to test I'm not doing it!!

I have a nice, long three day weekend... Am totally looking foward to it... Had today off, and didn't do much... did some shopping and went to the doctors (see above)

They're coming along very well with our basement... can't wait till they're done... They should be done by Paul's Bday... next week... yippeee!!! I'll definitly have to post pics!

Jess is in Iraq, we've been emailing alot... glad I can do that... He's not to happy with Gloris (big surprise lol). Apprarently since he's been over there she's emailed him like twice... lol...

Not much else is going on, we're going to Meijers in a lil bit... about 45 minutes... Gotta get a few things...

We might go to Ikea tomorrow... wanna get a TV stand for the basement, and my dresser... yippee!!!

I now have an expander in my mouth... It hurt like hell when she put it in, but I'm used to it now... It's weird though, when I eat food gets stuck up there... lol...

I also have a HUGE canker sore in the back of my mouth, near my throat... my gyno was able to give me a prescribed mouth rinse that'll help it... It hurts like hell when I swallow, eat, chew, talk... hell just sitting here it hurts... hopefully this mouth rinse will make it go away, or atleast feel better!!!

Gonna go!!!

I love my husband and can't wait to get pregnant with his child... it's going to be the so awesome!! Glad I quit smoking, and I haven't drank in over a week... gonna keep it that way... Also gonna start my prenatals tonight!!! Wanna make sure I'm healthy for the baby!!!

Amanda!!!

Crazy...

It's been crazy. Last week I was on the special project (testing the new machines) it was kinda cool. I really like the new machines, can't wait to use them in a store for real. We were supposed to be taken out of ALL our stores so we could devote Mon-Thur to the testing... Well, Tuesday evening, on our way back to the office, Francise called and told us that we had to go to Murrays Wed morning and help with the store. This was a 420 a.m. carpool with a 5 a.m. start. Can you believe that?!!? We were so pissed... But we went, and then we went and did a trial run of the testing for Thurs. On Thurs the big wigs were there and we had to put on our "show" for them, show them how well and great the new machines were... It wasn't that bad... we were there about an hour... On Friday I worked at CVS until 11... it was a short store...

And then!!! I got my braces... I know I have another blog braces related, but I thought I'd put some here... I was at the ortho for a little over 2 hours... and it wasn't that great. I have 8 spacers and my braces are in... My teeth were killing me this morning and were a little sore yesterday... But today was the worse... and I had to work at Sears for 10 hours... My teeth are fine right now, but I still can't chew... That'll get better though...

Jess is being shipped out sometime tomorrow... I'll be keeping him in my prayers, and I hope anyone reading this will too... I hate that he has to go back to Iraq, and I wish this damn war was over...

We're getting my new car tomorrow... A Pacifica!!! It's gonna be sweet... Actually tomorrow we're going to fill out all the papers, and on Tuesday we're getting it for good... I don't see why we can't just get it tomorrow... Paul and his silly ideas... once he gets an idea in his head, it's stuck there... Drives me crazy!!! I don't see why we can't get it tomorrow!! I really, really don't!!

10 days and no smoking!!!

I'm making a photo album to send to Grandma and Grandpa. I don't feel comfortable calling them and Sally said I should keep simple contact with them this year... She said I should write a letter and send some pictures... well I decided to make a scrap book for them... After we get my car I'm going to take some pics of it and the house, some of my braces, and some of Paul and I, and put them in the scrapbook... That should fill it up... It's not a big scrapbook. I've already added some snowy pics, a couple of Precious, one of Dad and I, and a few other... can't remember... It's going good... can't wait till it's finished and I can mail it!!!

Anyways, not much else is going on... I have to work tomorrow at Sears... AGAIN!! But I have Tuesday off, and then another Sears Wed... lol... Looks like I have the weekend off, and most of next week...like Thurs and Friday off!! I'm looking foward to having some days off... I can't wait!!!

Well, I'm gonna go... I'm watching Reba now...

Finishing our Basement!!!

I can't believe in less then 3 hours we decided to spend $28,000 on finishing our basement. Damn that guy was good.

I'm still in shock over this decision. We said we'd wait a few years before we finished our basement. I thought kids were our first priority, but now finishing our basement seems to be. Guess I"m a little miffed... But I'm excited too. It's just that it took Paul 5 years to decide to marry me "Because the cost of a wedding". And another 3 years to decide to have kids "because of money" but yet he can drop 28G's in less then 3 hours... of course this is another loan... a 20 year loan, and the payments will only be like $300 a month, so it's not that bad. But that $300 a month, with my $133 a month for braces, and then all the dr. bills from having a kid, and then all the kid crap... it's adding up... We were finally getting things under control... no wonder Pauls always in debt, he's not good with money at all... I understand that this is going to increase the value of our house and cause our heating and cooling bills to go down, so that's great.

I'm excited, but still in the shock phase... Plus, when the basement is done it won't be used for quit some time because we don't have any money to furnish it... Lol... so I don't get the point of finishing it now... but it'll be worth it in the long run... this is a good thing...

Work hasn't been so bad because I've been testing the new machines... Awesome... Tomorrow I have a store though. And then I get my braces.

Anyways, I'm tired.

Jess is going back to Iraq in a couple of days... :(

Mom said they're putting a Starbucks in Rsvl... Paul'll love that...

Damn that guy was a good salesman!!!

Time for beddy-bye!!!

Sweet dreams!!!

Smoking and Special Project

GUESS WHAT!!! I QUIT SMOKING!!!! Isn't that awesome!!! It's been 36 hours since I've smoked. I smoked yesterday morning before I went to work, not even realizing it was my last... but that was it. I said last week that that was my last pack... and I'm sticking to it!!! I'm so proud of myself!!! Woo Hoo!!!

It was a little rough last night though. I'm into the habit of smoking right after we eat dinner... and of course last night I didn't... So that was odd... I drove Paul nuts with my pacing, finger nail tapping, and gum snapping... Lol!!! But I made it through the first 24 hours... that's the hardest part... I feel fine now... Every now and then I get the urge, but not too bad... it's mostly just habit though. I'm used to going outside and smoking, and now I don't go outside. So when I feel like smoking I go outside and walk around for a few minutes and then its gone...

Francise called me last night and moved my stores on me. She pulled me out of the Dollar Tree and put me in CVS... Apparently Kim requested that I be put in her store (CVS). I didn't mind, I like Kim, and apparently she likes me because she requeseted me. Francise asked Kim why she liked me so much and Kim said "Because she's willing to help people, and she's fast". That made me feel good.

Also Francise put me on Special Project... Sounds cool huh?? Not really!! lol... She pulled me out of all my stores Mon-Thrus next week, and put me on the special project which is.... drum roll please to call it special project.... testing the new machines... LOL!! Can you believe that... how cheesy. I'm actually looking foward to it though... Getting a first hand look (and first person) at the new machines. So this'll be interesting..

Anyways, I'm supposed to be getting braces on Friday.. so we'll see!!!

Can't think of anything else going on... Making a frittata for dinner since it's Friday and Paul can't eat meat... should be yummy!!!

Hey

I'm going to make this short because it's almost bed time and I have to get up at 5...

So I'm going through with the braces and expander. We can afford $133.33 a month for 18 months and still have a baby.

Just to let readers know, I have started another "blog". My new blog is strictly for braces related stuff. I will still update this blog with regular life crap. But the other one (http://crooked2str8t.livejournal.com/) is braces only... No I'm not cheating on you!!!

Anyways time for bed... Will write more tomorrow I promise.

Amanda

Braces....

Okay, So I may not be getting braces at all... but I think I most likely will. We found out that our insurance only covers 50% and a $2000 life time maximum. Well my braces (with expanders) are $4400. Yikes!!! However, there's always a way to do monthly payments...LOL!!! We could pay $133 a month for the course of my treatment (18 months). Which I don't think is bad. The only thing is, now we have to find a way to have an extra $133 a month. Which I think we can do. I'm working now, which gives us about $600-$800 a month more then we were used to. So I would think that would work. And in July the Grand Am is going to be paid off... That's an extra $500. So I think we can pull it off... lol!!! But we also want to start trying to get pregnant next month, and all the dr.s bills, and baby crap costs alot of money too... So we'll see.

So now I'm getting braces on Friday, March 16 @ 2:00 pm... If I'm out of work in time. Which I should be because I have a FYE That morning at like 6. I should be home by noon.

It just sucks though because I was all ready and pumped up to get them tomorrow. I was in the right frame of mind "I can do this" and now I've just dropped. My whole attitude about having straight teeth is shitty again. I've always dreamed about having straight teeth, and as a child my parents couldn't afford braces. And it seems like we could pull it off, but I just don't know. It seems like everytime I get excited about something, and get all pumped up, something happens and it's gone just like that... I know this isn't true because a lot of really amazing, great things have happened in my life, but still... today sucks... I've always said if I could change one thing about myself body it would be my teeth... not my weight, or ass, or legs, or face... my teeth... And I feel like I'm sooo freakin close to getting that done, and then it's pulled away.

I just have to change my mindset again. The universe is trying to tell me something - Wednesday isn't the right time for me to get braces. And it wasn't pulled away from me, I just have to wait. The universe is not ready for me to get braces. Maybe I'm not as ready to get braces as I think I am... Hell I don't know!!!

The bottom line is... I need to wait another week and a half and see what happens.... If something happens in the week and a half that is negative towards me getting braces then I guess I'm not getting braces. BUT I DON'T WANNA WAIT!!! I want it done and over with.

I just have to believe that this is going to happen. I have to believe that we can afford it (because I know we can). I have to have faith that the universe will not let me down...

Time for me to go watch "The Secret" again... Definitely need to watch that movie today...

Okay, Paul's supposed to be calling me back... but he isn't... I hate it when he doesn't call me back. I know he's busy at work and whatnot, but still... take 5 minutes and call your freakin wife back... Lol... Still love him more then I did yesterday though... And yesterday I loved him tons!!! So imagine how I'll feel about him tomorrow!!!!

Whirlwind!!

Haha!! That was my junior high school mascot. I can hear it now... " G-J-H-S Russellville Whirlwinds!!!GOOOOO Whirlwinds" lol...

Yea, my life has been kind whirlwind like for the past month. I've been working almost everyday. Just had a couple days off a week. But it hasn't been bad. The money is cool... Lol

Anyways, We have to turn the Passat in at the end of the month. And guess what I'm getting!?!? A PACIFICA!!! I can't wait! I love those cars... Sooo cute... We took one for a test drive a couple weeks ago, and decided that's what I'm getting. We will get it on the 22nd... Just a couple more weeks... Like a week and a half!!! Woo hoo!!!

Teeth time!! Last Monday (Feb 26) I had my frist dentist appointment in over 8 years. I was scared to death. All that did of course was clean them. They made an appointment for March 5 (Today) to fill 5 (FIVE) cavaties... Like I said, it's been over 8 years since my last dentist appointment. So we just got back from the dentist... half of my mouth is completly numb. It feel weird to drink anything becuase I can't feel the liquid on the bottom left side of my mouth. But it wasn't that bad. I was totally freaked out about it though. I started crying in the dentist office and everything. I was not looking foward to it. But it wasn't that bad. They took care of it...

On Wednesday (DAY AFTER TOMORROW) I'm getting braces... Yep, BRACES... Can you freakin believe that? I'm kinda looking foward to it though. I've always wanted straight teeth and now I'm going to have them. Yay!!! But I know it's not going to feel good, and it's going to hurt at times. But the end product will totally be worth it. I look foward to having straight teeth.

Let's see, what else is going on. Oh yea. We babysat on Saturday. It was fun. We took Jakie over to Beth and Mike's and they had a blast. Jacob had a blast too. He didn't go to sleep until after 2 am though... but it wasn't bad.

We got our incom tax refund. Woo hoo!! But it's pretty much gone already... lol

We got a new couch.. love it love it love it!!! It's extremely comfy and looks great also. The cat likes it too.

We ordered for some more blinds. We got shades for the laundry room, stairs, spare bedroom with the bed in it, and the mast bath. They look awesome.

Hmm.... Paul gets his bonus on the 15th. So we're going to save that for the deck and sod... that'll be fun. We've decided to hire someone to build our deck... Thank god!!!

I'm still getting my puppy next month. And at the end of March, when I run out of BC, I'm off the pill... Yay!!! I just know we'll get pregnant fast... Just know it!!!

I'm just about done smoking. When I run out that's it, I'm not buying anymore. I'm down to about 2 smokes a day... When this pack is done, I'm not buying anymore... yay!!!

I cant' seem to think of anything else...

OMG, oh yea!! They've started building next door to us. There's going to be 2 small houses between us and the other row of small houses... I hate it... It's horrible... our value just soooo went down.. They just dug the hole of Friday and it sooooooo freaking close to our house. I can't believe how close. It totally sucks... But oh well, not much we can do about it. We knew they were going to build there, just didn't know it was going to be small houses... it totally sucks. They've also started digging holes at the front of the neighborhood for houses. We can't tell if they'll be small or not though. Just have to wait and see...

Anyways, I can't think of anything else... and my freakin tongue and left bottom side of my mouth is numb... it sucks. Hopefully it'll be gone around 3-4 so I can enjoy the yummy spicey chicken supreme pizza we have for dinner tonight... Hopefully!!!

Paul was great at the dentist with me. I tell ya, if I had to go alone, I probably wouldn't go. Thank god he was there... It was great having him there, feeling his hand on my leg, and holding my hand while they shot my up with novacaine... Love that man to death!! More and more everyday!!

Jacob...

We're currently babysitting... he's just tooo freakin adorable... and totally looks like his daddy!!

Paul so cute with him too, always ohhing and ahhhing... Rubbing his cheeks and nose and stuff... It was so cute when Jakie smiled at him... Paul got all excited and was like "OHH LOOK LOOK HE'S SMILING!!" It was so cute.

He just had 4 ounces, burped once, then I changed his diaper and wrapped him up in a blankey. Now he's laying on a few blankets on the floor and is squirming around and somewhat sleeping.

Paul's watching last night's Greys Anatomy right now... It was sooo freakin good last night. There's a really bad ferry boat wreck and the interns are sent on the scene. Meredith falls into the water while helping one guy by the water. Izzy is trying to help a guy who's stuck between two cars. George and Callie are married. Cristina and Burke are engaged. And Karev saves a pregnant women who is unrecognizable because she's sooo messed up in the face. But I think it's someone that Karev knows, but can't recognize her. It's a 3 parter... so we'll see!!!

Pauls on the floor with Jacob rubbing him and soothing him... they're so cute together... Gotta grab the camera...

I can't wait to have kids!!!

I love Paul!!

GED, Work, and Taxes!!!

Crap, I suck!!!

So, I got some books to do some studying for my GED... yea, thinking I'm in over my head, but I know I can do it...

Yesterday I took my Language Art - Writing test... I did really well. I scored 42/50, only missed 8. The book that I'm studying is says that you'll pass a section if you get just ofer 50% of the answers correct, so I think I did very well...

However, I just took the Social Studies test... OUCH!! I missed 19!! 31/50 was my score... I can't believe I did so poorly... I never liked Social Studies in school, but I was pretty good at it. Guess not any more. I still got a little of 50% correct though... Lol... So I know I definitly have to study Social Studies.

I'm still excited about getting my GED. I'm not going to let my pre-liminary tests bring me down!!!!! HA HA HA HA!!!! LOl...

Anyways, Tomorrow I have to get up for work at like 3:15 AM... UGH!! I am so not looking foward to that. The carpool is at 4:20 and the store starts at 5... UGH!!! I still can't believe I have to get up so freaking early. We should be done with the store fairly early though... like around 10ish. So I guess its not so bad. But I'll probably have to work for Rene' tomorrow night until like 10 and then I have to be at work at 5 on Thursday... UGH... I'm going to be so tired. But I have Friday and Saturday off... We're going to babysit Jakie on Fri or Sat and the other night Paul wants to go out...

Paul did our taxes Saturday night... we're geting ALOT back... Woo Hoo!!! Funny story though. I worked for Rene' on Saturday night so she and Helmut could go out. I got home around 920ish and Paul was still doing our taxes. Well, he finished the taxes and went into the study to print our returns... Well, he was apparently signed into work, and they printed at work... So it's 1030 at night, we're already in our jammies, and we had to get dressed and drive to 50 miles round trip to Pauls work to get our tax papers... LOL!!! We stopped at Applebee's afterwards to get a drink and a bite to eat... So something good came out of it.. Lol... I'm never going to let him forget it!!!

Anyways, we're getting a federal return on the 16th... YAY!!! We want to get a new couch, save some money for landscaping, baby, and a small vaca... and not sure what we'll do with the rest!!! I'm just glad we're getting some back!!

Not much else is going on... just been working like crazy, looking foward to having the weekend off... Atleast I get to see Bobbie tomorrow... haven't seen her in a while.

It's been soooooo cold her lately... It hasn't gone above 10 degrees since like Friday, and it's going to stay that way for the rest of the week. We're supposed to hit 20 this weekend though... YAY!!! Heat wave! Lol... It's been below zero every night since Saturday and single digits Sunday, yesterday, and today... BRRRRR!!! Bundle up when you go outside!!!

Guess, I'll get going. Paul's on his way home, and I gotta scrounge something up for dinner, pantry's getting low... but I don't get paid till Friday... we're scraping the barrel this week... we won't be any more after next week... for a lil while anyways... LOL!!!

Goal Planning... GED & Baby

I don't have to work until tonight, so I got out my goal book and was working on it...

I've decided definitly to get my GED. It's $170 and they're testing at the end of February, sometime in March, and twice in May... I talked to Paul and he told me to I should do it. We've decided that I'm going to do the March test. This weekend I want to go get some books and study up a little... It's been a while since I've had to do school work... all subjects at the same time anyways... Lol... So I definitly want to study. I'm excited about it, and a little nervous...

Paul and I also decided that I can stop taking BC in April. I think I may have mentioned this in my last entry, but oh well... I'm saying it again... lol... I'm excited!!! I have to make a dentist appointment though... not at all looking foward to that... Dentists terrify me... literally TERRIFY me!!! I know I'll be okay though. I just need to get a cleaning and make sure that everythings okay... I know I have alot of cavities... And they'll get filled in time, so we'll see... Still not looking foward to it!!!

Not much else is going on, just doing laundry, washing the sheets!! I did like 5 loads of laundry yesterday, so everything is all clean!!!!

I don't have to be at work until 6 tonight... I'll leave around 5... maybe I should leave a littler earlier with rush hour... not sure yet, I'll figue it out... I'm working at Value City at Macomb Mall tonight... It shouldnt be to bad... I hope... I have tomorrow off, but I work for Rene'. And then I work Thursday morning at a CVS in Lake Orion... and Friday I work at Seflridge... looking foward to that... It should be interesting!!!

Love my husband still... more then I did 5 years ago... We've been through so much together. We respect and support each other to no end... It's absolutly amazing!!! We have a date tomorrow night to make love... Kinda sucks that we have to plan a day... but at least we're still making love every once in a while... LOL!!!

LOVE HIM LOVE HIM LOVE HIM!!!!