Finishing our Basement!!!

I can't believe in less then 3 hours we decided to spend $28,000 on finishing our basement. Damn that guy was good.

I'm still in shock over this decision. We said we'd wait a few years before we finished our basement. I thought kids were our first priority, but now finishing our basement seems to be. Guess I"m a little miffed... But I'm excited too. It's just that it took Paul 5 years to decide to marry me "Because the cost of a wedding". And another 3 years to decide to have kids "because of money" but yet he can drop 28G's in less then 3 hours... of course this is another loan... a 20 year loan, and the payments will only be like $300 a month, so it's not that bad. But that $300 a month, with my $133 a month for braces, and then all the dr. bills from having a kid, and then all the kid crap... it's adding up... We were finally getting things under control... no wonder Pauls always in debt, he's not good with money at all... I understand that this is going to increase the value of our house and cause our heating and cooling bills to go down, so that's great.

I'm excited, but still in the shock phase... Plus, when the basement is done it won't be used for quit some time because we don't have any money to furnish it... Lol... so I don't get the point of finishing it now... but it'll be worth it in the long run... this is a good thing...

Work hasn't been so bad because I've been testing the new machines... Awesome... Tomorrow I have a store though. And then I get my braces.

Anyways, I'm tired.

Jess is going back to Iraq in a couple of days... :(

Mom said they're putting a Starbucks in Rsvl... Paul'll love that...

Damn that guy was a good salesman!!!

Time for beddy-bye!!!

Sweet dreams!!!

Smoking and Special Project

GUESS WHAT!!! I QUIT SMOKING!!!! Isn't that awesome!!! It's been 36 hours since I've smoked. I smoked yesterday morning before I went to work, not even realizing it was my last... but that was it. I said last week that that was my last pack... and I'm sticking to it!!! I'm so proud of myself!!! Woo Hoo!!!

It was a little rough last night though. I'm into the habit of smoking right after we eat dinner... and of course last night I didn't... So that was odd... I drove Paul nuts with my pacing, finger nail tapping, and gum snapping... Lol!!! But I made it through the first 24 hours... that's the hardest part... I feel fine now... Every now and then I get the urge, but not too bad... it's mostly just habit though. I'm used to going outside and smoking, and now I don't go outside. So when I feel like smoking I go outside and walk around for a few minutes and then its gone...

Francise called me last night and moved my stores on me. She pulled me out of the Dollar Tree and put me in CVS... Apparently Kim requested that I be put in her store (CVS). I didn't mind, I like Kim, and apparently she likes me because she requeseted me. Francise asked Kim why she liked me so much and Kim said "Because she's willing to help people, and she's fast". That made me feel good.

Also Francise put me on Special Project... Sounds cool huh?? Not really!! lol... She pulled me out of all my stores Mon-Thrus next week, and put me on the special project which is.... drum roll please to call it special project.... testing the new machines... LOL!! Can you believe that... how cheesy. I'm actually looking foward to it though... Getting a first hand look (and first person) at the new machines. So this'll be interesting..

Anyways, I'm supposed to be getting braces on Friday.. so we'll see!!!

Can't think of anything else going on... Making a frittata for dinner since it's Friday and Paul can't eat meat... should be yummy!!!

Hey

I'm going to make this short because it's almost bed time and I have to get up at 5...

So I'm going through with the braces and expander. We can afford $133.33 a month for 18 months and still have a baby.

Just to let readers know, I have started another "blog". My new blog is strictly for braces related stuff. I will still update this blog with regular life crap. But the other one (http://crooked2str8t.livejournal.com/) is braces only... No I'm not cheating on you!!!

Anyways time for bed... Will write more tomorrow I promise.

Amanda

Braces....

Okay, So I may not be getting braces at all... but I think I most likely will. We found out that our insurance only covers 50% and a $2000 life time maximum. Well my braces (with expanders) are $4400. Yikes!!! However, there's always a way to do monthly payments...LOL!!! We could pay $133 a month for the course of my treatment (18 months). Which I don't think is bad. The only thing is, now we have to find a way to have an extra $133 a month. Which I think we can do. I'm working now, which gives us about $600-$800 a month more then we were used to. So I would think that would work. And in July the Grand Am is going to be paid off... That's an extra $500. So I think we can pull it off... lol!!! But we also want to start trying to get pregnant next month, and all the dr.s bills, and baby crap costs alot of money too... So we'll see.

So now I'm getting braces on Friday, March 16 @ 2:00 pm... If I'm out of work in time. Which I should be because I have a FYE That morning at like 6. I should be home by noon.

It just sucks though because I was all ready and pumped up to get them tomorrow. I was in the right frame of mind "I can do this" and now I've just dropped. My whole attitude about having straight teeth is shitty again. I've always dreamed about having straight teeth, and as a child my parents couldn't afford braces. And it seems like we could pull it off, but I just don't know. It seems like everytime I get excited about something, and get all pumped up, something happens and it's gone just like that... I know this isn't true because a lot of really amazing, great things have happened in my life, but still... today sucks... I've always said if I could change one thing about myself body it would be my teeth... not my weight, or ass, or legs, or face... my teeth... And I feel like I'm sooo freakin close to getting that done, and then it's pulled away.

I just have to change my mindset again. The universe is trying to tell me something - Wednesday isn't the right time for me to get braces. And it wasn't pulled away from me, I just have to wait. The universe is not ready for me to get braces. Maybe I'm not as ready to get braces as I think I am... Hell I don't know!!!

The bottom line is... I need to wait another week and a half and see what happens.... If something happens in the week and a half that is negative towards me getting braces then I guess I'm not getting braces. BUT I DON'T WANNA WAIT!!! I want it done and over with.

I just have to believe that this is going to happen. I have to believe that we can afford it (because I know we can). I have to have faith that the universe will not let me down...

Time for me to go watch "The Secret" again... Definitely need to watch that movie today...

Okay, Paul's supposed to be calling me back... but he isn't... I hate it when he doesn't call me back. I know he's busy at work and whatnot, but still... take 5 minutes and call your freakin wife back... Lol... Still love him more then I did yesterday though... And yesterday I loved him tons!!! So imagine how I'll feel about him tomorrow!!!!

Whirlwind!!

Haha!! That was my junior high school mascot. I can hear it now... " G-J-H-S Russellville Whirlwinds!!!GOOOOO Whirlwinds" lol...

Yea, my life has been kind whirlwind like for the past month. I've been working almost everyday. Just had a couple days off a week. But it hasn't been bad. The money is cool... Lol

Anyways, We have to turn the Passat in at the end of the month. And guess what I'm getting!?!? A PACIFICA!!! I can't wait! I love those cars... Sooo cute... We took one for a test drive a couple weeks ago, and decided that's what I'm getting. We will get it on the 22nd... Just a couple more weeks... Like a week and a half!!! Woo hoo!!!

Teeth time!! Last Monday (Feb 26) I had my frist dentist appointment in over 8 years. I was scared to death. All that did of course was clean them. They made an appointment for March 5 (Today) to fill 5 (FIVE) cavaties... Like I said, it's been over 8 years since my last dentist appointment. So we just got back from the dentist... half of my mouth is completly numb. It feel weird to drink anything becuase I can't feel the liquid on the bottom left side of my mouth. But it wasn't that bad. I was totally freaked out about it though. I started crying in the dentist office and everything. I was not looking foward to it. But it wasn't that bad. They took care of it...

On Wednesday (DAY AFTER TOMORROW) I'm getting braces... Yep, BRACES... Can you freakin believe that? I'm kinda looking foward to it though. I've always wanted straight teeth and now I'm going to have them. Yay!!! But I know it's not going to feel good, and it's going to hurt at times. But the end product will totally be worth it. I look foward to having straight teeth.

Let's see, what else is going on. Oh yea. We babysat on Saturday. It was fun. We took Jakie over to Beth and Mike's and they had a blast. Jacob had a blast too. He didn't go to sleep until after 2 am though... but it wasn't bad.

We got our incom tax refund. Woo hoo!! But it's pretty much gone already... lol

We got a new couch.. love it love it love it!!! It's extremely comfy and looks great also. The cat likes it too.

We ordered for some more blinds. We got shades for the laundry room, stairs, spare bedroom with the bed in it, and the mast bath. They look awesome.

Hmm.... Paul gets his bonus on the 15th. So we're going to save that for the deck and sod... that'll be fun. We've decided to hire someone to build our deck... Thank god!!!

I'm still getting my puppy next month. And at the end of March, when I run out of BC, I'm off the pill... Yay!!! I just know we'll get pregnant fast... Just know it!!!

I'm just about done smoking. When I run out that's it, I'm not buying anymore. I'm down to about 2 smokes a day... When this pack is done, I'm not buying anymore... yay!!!

I cant' seem to think of anything else...

OMG, oh yea!! They've started building next door to us. There's going to be 2 small houses between us and the other row of small houses... I hate it... It's horrible... our value just soooo went down.. They just dug the hole of Friday and it sooooooo freaking close to our house. I can't believe how close. It totally sucks... But oh well, not much we can do about it. We knew they were going to build there, just didn't know it was going to be small houses... it totally sucks. They've also started digging holes at the front of the neighborhood for houses. We can't tell if they'll be small or not though. Just have to wait and see...

Anyways, I can't think of anything else... and my freakin tongue and left bottom side of my mouth is numb... it sucks. Hopefully it'll be gone around 3-4 so I can enjoy the yummy spicey chicken supreme pizza we have for dinner tonight... Hopefully!!!

Paul was great at the dentist with me. I tell ya, if I had to go alone, I probably wouldn't go. Thank god he was there... It was great having him there, feeling his hand on my leg, and holding my hand while they shot my up with novacaine... Love that man to death!! More and more everyday!!

Jacob...

We're currently babysitting... he's just tooo freakin adorable... and totally looks like his daddy!!

Paul so cute with him too, always ohhing and ahhhing... Rubbing his cheeks and nose and stuff... It was so cute when Jakie smiled at him... Paul got all excited and was like "OHH LOOK LOOK HE'S SMILING!!" It was so cute.

He just had 4 ounces, burped once, then I changed his diaper and wrapped him up in a blankey. Now he's laying on a few blankets on the floor and is squirming around and somewhat sleeping.

Paul's watching last night's Greys Anatomy right now... It was sooo freakin good last night. There's a really bad ferry boat wreck and the interns are sent on the scene. Meredith falls into the water while helping one guy by the water. Izzy is trying to help a guy who's stuck between two cars. George and Callie are married. Cristina and Burke are engaged. And Karev saves a pregnant women who is unrecognizable because she's sooo messed up in the face. But I think it's someone that Karev knows, but can't recognize her. It's a 3 parter... so we'll see!!!

Pauls on the floor with Jacob rubbing him and soothing him... they're so cute together... Gotta grab the camera...

I can't wait to have kids!!!

I love Paul!!

GED, Work, and Taxes!!!

Crap, I suck!!!

So, I got some books to do some studying for my GED... yea, thinking I'm in over my head, but I know I can do it...

Yesterday I took my Language Art - Writing test... I did really well. I scored 42/50, only missed 8. The book that I'm studying is says that you'll pass a section if you get just ofer 50% of the answers correct, so I think I did very well...

However, I just took the Social Studies test... OUCH!! I missed 19!! 31/50 was my score... I can't believe I did so poorly... I never liked Social Studies in school, but I was pretty good at it. Guess not any more. I still got a little of 50% correct though... Lol... So I know I definitly have to study Social Studies.

I'm still excited about getting my GED. I'm not going to let my pre-liminary tests bring me down!!!!! HA HA HA HA!!!! LOl...

Anyways, Tomorrow I have to get up for work at like 3:15 AM... UGH!! I am so not looking foward to that. The carpool is at 4:20 and the store starts at 5... UGH!!! I still can't believe I have to get up so freaking early. We should be done with the store fairly early though... like around 10ish. So I guess its not so bad. But I'll probably have to work for Rene' tomorrow night until like 10 and then I have to be at work at 5 on Thursday... UGH... I'm going to be so tired. But I have Friday and Saturday off... We're going to babysit Jakie on Fri or Sat and the other night Paul wants to go out...

Paul did our taxes Saturday night... we're geting ALOT back... Woo Hoo!!! Funny story though. I worked for Rene' on Saturday night so she and Helmut could go out. I got home around 920ish and Paul was still doing our taxes. Well, he finished the taxes and went into the study to print our returns... Well, he was apparently signed into work, and they printed at work... So it's 1030 at night, we're already in our jammies, and we had to get dressed and drive to 50 miles round trip to Pauls work to get our tax papers... LOL!!! We stopped at Applebee's afterwards to get a drink and a bite to eat... So something good came out of it.. Lol... I'm never going to let him forget it!!!

Anyways, we're getting a federal return on the 16th... YAY!!! We want to get a new couch, save some money for landscaping, baby, and a small vaca... and not sure what we'll do with the rest!!! I'm just glad we're getting some back!!

Not much else is going on... just been working like crazy, looking foward to having the weekend off... Atleast I get to see Bobbie tomorrow... haven't seen her in a while.

It's been soooooo cold her lately... It hasn't gone above 10 degrees since like Friday, and it's going to stay that way for the rest of the week. We're supposed to hit 20 this weekend though... YAY!!! Heat wave! Lol... It's been below zero every night since Saturday and single digits Sunday, yesterday, and today... BRRRRR!!! Bundle up when you go outside!!!

Guess, I'll get going. Paul's on his way home, and I gotta scrounge something up for dinner, pantry's getting low... but I don't get paid till Friday... we're scraping the barrel this week... we won't be any more after next week... for a lil while anyways... LOL!!!

Goal Planning... GED & Baby

I don't have to work until tonight, so I got out my goal book and was working on it...

I've decided definitly to get my GED. It's $170 and they're testing at the end of February, sometime in March, and twice in May... I talked to Paul and he told me to I should do it. We've decided that I'm going to do the March test. This weekend I want to go get some books and study up a little... It's been a while since I've had to do school work... all subjects at the same time anyways... Lol... So I definitly want to study. I'm excited about it, and a little nervous...

Paul and I also decided that I can stop taking BC in April. I think I may have mentioned this in my last entry, but oh well... I'm saying it again... lol... I'm excited!!! I have to make a dentist appointment though... not at all looking foward to that... Dentists terrify me... literally TERRIFY me!!! I know I'll be okay though. I just need to get a cleaning and make sure that everythings okay... I know I have alot of cavities... And they'll get filled in time, so we'll see... Still not looking foward to it!!!

Not much else is going on, just doing laundry, washing the sheets!! I did like 5 loads of laundry yesterday, so everything is all clean!!!!

I don't have to be at work until 6 tonight... I'll leave around 5... maybe I should leave a littler earlier with rush hour... not sure yet, I'll figue it out... I'm working at Value City at Macomb Mall tonight... It shouldnt be to bad... I hope... I have tomorrow off, but I work for Rene'. And then I work Thursday morning at a CVS in Lake Orion... and Friday I work at Seflridge... looking foward to that... It should be interesting!!!

Love my husband still... more then I did 5 years ago... We've been through so much together. We respect and support each other to no end... It's absolutly amazing!!! We have a date tomorrow night to make love... Kinda sucks that we have to plan a day... but at least we're still making love every once in a while... LOL!!!

LOVE HIM LOVE HIM LOVE HIM!!!!

My Life...

My life has turned into work... Lol... But ya know what? I really don't mind. It's weird... I actually enjoy the work, but that's not to say that it isnt frustrating... Like today... I had to get up at 4:20 this morning to be at the carpool at 520... But I did okay... I was awake by the time I left the house... I drove to Great Lakes Crossing... We crammed 4 other people in my car... It was funny... But they all fit... Today was frustrating... we did Urban Behavor, and about 90% of the SKUs were faded so we had to punch the SKU numbers in... It took forever. If we didn't have to punch almost every one in, we'd have been done about an hour earlier... but the time wasn't bad. The store started at 6 and I was home around 1130... so not bad... I got my first BIG pay check on Friday... It was nice to see... Makes me feel good...

Haven't seen much of Jen... She takes Jake to Erics parents everyday but only brings him up here when we call and ask her too... I understand that they live like a mile away, but we're only like 5 miles away... She never brings him here... Whatever... He's still cute, and they're doing good from what I understand...

We helped Beth move yesterday... It was tiring, but she's all moved into her house... Her house is so nice, it looks really cozy with all her furniture in there... They all seem to be really happy about it... Mike was home to help move, however Beth is pissed... Mike was on the road with Eddie, helping him drive, for like 2-3 weeks, and Eddie paid him less the a thousand bucks... he definitly should have been paid ALOT more, but of course Mike wouldn't say anything... NO THAT WASN"T A RUN ON SENTENCE... HAHAH...

Anyways, after we helped her move we came home, put on jammies and watched TV and a movie. We got a call from Beth around 730 saying that we had ALL of her pillows in the trunk of our car... I still can't believe that no one remembered to get them out... Lol... So today after we went to Fay and Jerrys we took her the pillows... lol...

I had a good birthday... We drug Beth out with us to Butterflys and played pool for a while, drank a little, and then went back to Beth's apt. and played cards... We got home around 130... it was really nice being able to get out of the house... with me working we actually had the money... it was fun...

Paul and I talked yesterday on the way to Beth's about having a baby... He agrees that I can stop taking BC in April some time - after my doctors appointment, I have to have a pap because my last one came back abnormal, but she said it was most likely stress or the lab made a mistake, they didn't see worried. Plus I was to talk to the doctor and find out what kind of supplements and stuff I should start taking... Etc... I'm really excited... April isn't that far off... We won't TRY to get pregnant for a couple of months, but if it happens then great. If we don't get pregnant by like July/August then we'll start with ovulation tests etc... I told Paul that this means he's going to have to start making love to me more often... Lol... I was just picking, but it's true... We only make love once every couple of weeks, when we start trying to get pregnant...we'll ya'll know how that works... Lol...

I'm still getting my puppy in April... WOO HOO!!!! Lol... I can't wait... I'm so excited...

There's so many things to look foward to in April... stopping BC, puppy, and our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!! How feaking cool is that...we've been married almost a year... it's weird... I still love him as much (if not more) as I did 5 years ago... It's totally awesome being married to you best friend, life long companion, and the one that completes you!!!

The other day Paul stopped at the office and brushed the snow off my car and warmed it up for me... the women in the car couldn't believe he would do that for me... It was on his way home from work so why wouldn't he... I dunno, I guess I'm just lucky to have such a caring man. He may not be romantic but he is caring and loving...

He also vaccumed and straightened the kitchen up for me today, so I don't have so much to do tomorrow... God, I love that man!!!

Tomorrow I have TONS of laundry to do... That's really been slacking since I've been working. And I have to clean the kitchen and the fish tank is getting a little algeafied... Lol... I know, that's not a word, but I just made it one... Ha!

It has been cold and snowing almost every day...I love it, as long as I don't have to drive in it... I drove in it last week, and it wasn't too bad, but I still don't like it. Today while we were at Beth's it started a freakin blizzard outside... In about 5 minutes our car was covered in snow, so we decided to leave before it got too bad.

Right now Paul is watching CNN. I turned it on for him so he wouldn't be bored while I was typing this 20 page entry... Lol... His laptop has crapped out on him, so he can't even play Neopets... poor guy. But I let him use mine of course... They're gonna fix it tomorrow, or just give him a new one since he's supposed to get a new one next month anyways... He'll find out tomorrow...

We got his W2's and the mortgage interest statement, so we're all set to do our taxes. We'll prolly do them after Feb first some time, not sure yet. We've decided to hire someone to do our sod and deck. And we also want to get a new couch set for the living room. Plus I want to set aside about 500 bucks from the refund for our baby, and 500 bucks from his bonus, and about 50 bucks a pay check from me.... I know a baby is going to cost more then that, but it's better then nothing...

Anyways, not much else is going on, that I can think of anyways... So I'm gonna go, cause we're gonna watch a couple of BROTHERS AND SISTERS... lovee that show... But GA is still my favvv!! I'll definitly be in bed early tonight!!!

~~~~~~<3I love my husband<3~~~~~~

Amanda

Work... Work... Work...

Well, I've been working pretty much straight for a week. I like the job though... And the pay isn't bad either... Lol... I've done 3 Macy's, 2 Marshalls, a Childrens Place, a TJ Maxx, and today I did a KMart. My next pay check should be huge... Lol.. my first pay check should arrive tomorrow, but it's only for training and the first 2 Macy's. Can't wait to get my next one... It seems like all I've been doing is working... and sleeping... I'm doing okay with the morning... I just go to bed around 10 and get up at 5... this morning I had to get up at 445 cause the start time was 6... who the hell schedules a store that early... Francise that's who... Lol... She's funny though.

Nancy left... I can't believe how fucking crazy she is. Friday night Paul, Ed, Christine, Jen, and I had to go to Jen's apartment and pretty much run her out of there... She's so crazy... she refused to leave... We told her she had to... She was screaming and yelling all this crazy shit about how Jen should be going to college and not beauty school. she should be getting a degree that she can do something with... yada yada yada... And how Eric is a total loser... Oh yea, she says that Eric is irresponsible because he works two jobs and isn't spending 24/7 with Jacob or cleaning the house or cooking dinner (yada yada yada)... Someone has to pay the freakin bills... Lol...I think Eric is doing the responsible thing... I'm actually surprised he's working two jobs to pay the bills... And then she started in on Paul and I.... How Paul was raping me... Never happened of course... The legal age in MI 17... Yada Yada Yada... How I had a fight with Jen 5 years ago... And look who has the better relationship with her now... I DO, NOT NANCY!!! Like I said... Total NUTTTT Job!!!! She also thinks EVERYONE knew that Jen was pregnant before Jens graduation when Nancy was here... NO ONE KNEW... She was screaming and yelling and once jumped up and looked like she was about to deck Ed... She jumped in front of her and yelled "Get out of his face"... And of course Nancy spewed the normal shit about how Jen doesn't love her and never has... Yada Yada Yada... we're tired of hearing it... When we finally got Nancy to leave she asked to see the baby, and Jen said "no, you've blown that". So we took her to the motel that night, and get this... after Nancy said that Jen never loves her and That Nancy won't call anymore and Jen said okay... Nancy went out and bought Jen a new car seat... Now, another thing... Nancy said she had NOOO money, but yet she sent Michelle 500 bucks, bought her own plane ticket home, and spent about 100 bucks on a car seat for Jen... All Nancy is trying to do is buy Jen's love... It's crazy...

But anyways, enough about Nancy...

Not much else has been going on since I've been working... It's been pretty crazy...

Here's my GORGEOUS Grandson!!!!

Jen and Jakie are doing well. We saw him the other day... everytime we see him he's gotten so big... Lol... God he's cute..

Jen said that Jacob had the hiccups the other day for like 20 minutes and Eric was freaking out... Eric thought he was dieing and wanted to rush him to the ER... Lol... Loving, nervous father... Lol...

Anyways, I've talked enough, time for a smoke and maybe a walk... Maybe we'll walk up and get the mail... Maybe my check came... Maybe Pauls W2 came... Maybe Just Maybe!!!

I love Paul to death... He's been so sweet since I've started working, helping out with the house work, laundry, cooking, etc... it's very nice... Just a loving, caring husband I have... How freakin lucky am I?!?! I'll tell ya!! I'm the luckiest girl in the world!!!!

Love you Paul!!!!

Nancy

Jen just called a few minutes ago and said that Nancy is becoming a big problem. Nancy apparently was yelling at Jen AND Eric last night saying that she wasn't leaving and they couldn't make her. I can't believe Nancy is acting this way... It's so childish!!!

Hopefully Jen calls me back in a few minutes.. She had to go because Aunt Michelle called... I'm sure Aunt Michelle will side with Nancy on this one... They're both insane... Literally!!!

See, It Wasn't Bad!!! Lol

Okay, So I was freaking out over nothing... Lol... As usual!!!

When I left the house to go to work last night I freaking out though... I REALLLY did not want to go. I was about to start crying, gave Paul about 40 good bye hugs (lol), and I was shaking so bad.

When I got to carpool I wasn't exactly sure what to do or who I was looking for, since the carpool was in a major parking lot. I saw one lady sitting in her car, and she looked like she was with RGIS so I tentativly aproached. Her name is Bobbie and yes, she does work with RGIS. Last night was her second night, so I carpooled to Port Huron with her, Gabrielle, Bill, and Kellie... No car full of smelly men... Lol...

Work wasn't that bad. It was a little confusing in the back room when they're trying to get everything set up, but on the floor wasn't that bad. I was in womens clothing at Macy's in Port Huron. I still can't believe my first store was a HUUGEE one... I didnt do that bad.... My first couple racks I messed up but Linda (the trainer) helped me get through them. After that it was a breeze.

My average at about 2 a.m. was 356/hr. The goal is 450/hr... I should be there in no time... Considereing average for first night is around 300... Not bad if I do say so myself... Lol...

It was hard, physical work... standing for 7 hours... I got to sit down for a few of the sweater shelves... but just a couple...

We didn't clock out until 4:10 a.m. and I didn't get home until a little after 5... Fortunatly, Paul was still home... So I got to see him this morning.. YAY!!! I hope that happens tomorrow morning too... So I went to be around 6:30 this morning... It was really weird sleeping during the day... without Paul next to me snoring.. .Lol... Some guy called at 1 looking for James... Wrong number of course... And then RGIS called at 3 and woke me up. They were confirming my schedule and stuff for the next couple of weeks, and ever gave me a some more stores... It's going to be one freaking crazy month!!!

But all in all... It's not that bad!!!

Paul wrote me the sweetest note last night, so I would see it when I got home this morning... Here's what is says:

"Mandy,
I hope you had a good day at work. It takes a lot of courage to do something you've never done before. If it's much too difficult, then it is up to you if you want to continue.
It's strange going to bed without a good night kiss!
I'll see you when you get home!
I love you!
Love,
Paul"


Isn't that sweeeett!?!?! That's my loving husband for ya... I know to most people a new job isn't a big deal... but it is to me... I have some serious anxiety problems when I'm meeting new people to doing new things with new people... But I know I can do it... I did it!!!

I love my husband to death!!!

New Job!!!

Okay, I posted this on my myspave blog last night. I'm just copying and pasting it in here...

UGHHHH... I start my new job in a few hours. I have to be at carpool in about an hour and work starts at 9... I'm freaking out right now... soooo freaking nervous... I don't know any of the ppl I'm going to be working with, AND I have to ride in a car with them... I just know it's going ot be all men... smelly, icky men... UGH... I'm all nerves... Jumpy, shaky, freaking out... I'll prolly go through a whole freakin pack of smokes in the next 20 minutes... Lol....

I know this time tomorrow I'm going to be just fine, I'll be saying "see that was a peice of cake" lol... but I'm not saying that right now... I'm freaking out!!!!

Breath in through the nose, out through the mouth...

These stupid relaxation techniques aren't working!!! They usually do though... guess I'm too wound up!!!

It's all going to be okay... I know that... I keep telling myself that, and so does Paul...

I'll be okay... I'll be okay... I'll be okay...

That's my mantra for tonight...

I'll be okay... I'll be okay... I'll be okay...

WISH ME LUCK!!!

Jacob Christopher!!!

Well, I guess I'm a Grandma... HAHA!!! How frickin funny is that?!?!? Jacob Christopher was born at 9:28 pm on December 29th. He weighs 7 pounds 1 ounce and is 19.5 inches long. Paul's stickin to being called "G-Man" instead of "Grandpa" lol...

We were at Beth's house painting (gorgeous house btw!) when she called and said she was going to the hospital. Paul got a little teary eyed, and was nervous and anxious about it. He hated seeing Jen in pain, of course. He still won't hold Jacob. He said he'll hold him in a couple of weeks... LOL... how funny... Nancy actually asked me if I wanted to hold him, of course... He's the cutest little thang!!! Jen called me Grandma once and Nancy didn't like that, but she'll just have to get over it!!!!

Jen went to the hospital around 5:30 yesterday afternoon. They broke her water about 10 minutes before 8. Before they broke her water she was dialated 5 cm, within half an hour she was at 7 cm, 10 minutes after they she was at 9 cms and was pushing. They didnt have time for the epidural, but she said it wasn't that bad. They were getting ready to do the epidural, but when she would sit up, his heart rate would drop, so they told her to just start pushing.

Nancy stayed in the room with her, she got what she wanted. But Eric didn't show up until about 2 minutes after the baby was born... What IDIOT works when his girl friend is giving birth?!?! I don't get that... Leave work, take the frickin night off... But atleast he showed up.

We (Paul, Fay, Jerry, Shay, and me) went to sit in the waiting room while he was in labor. Paul wanted a drink so Shay, Paul, and I went walking down the hall, we walked past her room and heard the baby crying... it was the weirdest thing, we just kinda stopped and looked at each other, and said "She had the baby already". I ran back to the waiting room, told Fay and Jerry, and then Eric walked him, I told him to run to the room at the end of the hall...

So about 20 minutes after that we all went at stood outside her room, and about 20 minutes after that they let us in. I will definitly post pictures later, I FORGOT MY CAMERA... But Shay was snappin pics, and of course Nancy was too...

I'm taking my camera today damnit!!! We'll prolly head to the hospital in a lil bit. I wanna stop at Meijers and get a card, maybe some flowers, I dunno... something for her. And of course Paul wants to stop at Starbucks.

Training

Okay, so training was pretty easy. I'm elated... I can't believe I have a frikkin job... it's weird. I also go my schedule, mostly nights, but a couple of early morning things. I have to be at a K-mart at like 6 a.m.... UGH... A couple of 7 a.ms.... but mostly 6-9 p.ms... Works for me... If I calculated the hours for the stores we'll be in I should make a little over $500 for a 10 day period... How freakin awesome is that?!!? Lol... I can't believe the training was so easy. I was so nervous about it. I blew right through it and was the first person to be done and leave... It rocked. Of course I'm nervous about my first day (Jan 4). They put me in a Macy's... I kinda thought my first store would be a small one. I'm doing like 3 Macy's, a Childrens Place, K-Mart, Marshalls, and a TJ Maxx. It'll be cool. I'm looking foward to it, just hope I don't screw up. I just have to get black solid pants, and black comfy tennis shoes. They gave me my shirt yesterday. It's maroon and says RGIS on the sleeve... Sweet!!!

Oh yea, Paul's not going to Seattle, they were mistaken when they told him, he's going to Portland... The poor guy, he was so thrilled to go to the home of Starbucks, and then they yank it away from him... Lol.... He's okay though, of course...

I can't believe tomorrow is Christmas Eve. It seems so weird. It's so warm outside that it doesn't even feel like Christmas time, but the traffic tells differently. It took me an hour to get from 27/Gratiot to Hall and Hayes yesterday... a drive that should have taken 20 minutes... traffic was horrific... I couldn't believe it... I hated it.

Jen won over $3000 at Bingo last night. I can't believe it, she's so thrilled, she said she's going to take Paul and I out to dinner tonight, so that's cool... So since she won all the money she's going to pay for a hotel room for Nancy AND a plane ticket back to FL... So I guess this means that Nancy is coming in... Bummer... Hope Jen has that baby before she gets here. It's nerve racking... Maybe she'll go into labor tomorrow night while we're all at Fay and Jerry's and then we'll all move the party to the labor and delivery floor of MCG... Lol.... Somehow I doubt they'll let us bring liquor!!! lol...

Jess got a Leave from the army. He's going to Elkhart. I'm trying to talk him into comming and seeing me for a day. Gloria has Monday and Tuesday off, so they can come up Monday Evening and leave Tuesday afternoon... Since we have to pick Nancy up Tuesday anyways. I would like to see my big brother. I know it's going to be a few years before I get to see him again... Love him to death, and pray he's safe over seas...

Not much else is going on, getting ready for Christmas... Wow...

I hope everyone has a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! And a SAFE NEW YEAR!!!!!

Seattle and Vajayjay

Seattle and Vayjayjay.... how appropriate!! lol...

Today Paul's job asked him to go to Seattle in the middle of January. Around my bday :( He'll leave around the 15 and be gone for like 5-6 days. It makes me a little sad. It's the first time we're away from each other since we got married. And it's the first time that he's left and not me. And it's the first time that I'll be alone at night in our HUGE house... a little scary. All the other times that we've been apart I was in AR... so it's different this time... But I guess I'm a big girl, so I'll live.

Jen still hasn't had her baby... Soon though.

Anyways, I shaved my Vajayjay!!! I still can't believe it. I don't know why I did it, just decided to do it... It's a little itchy, and is only going to get itchier, but I'm thinking about keeping it shaved... we'll see. Paul's not used to it either. He'll get used to it though. But it is itchy... Lol...

Not much else is going on. I can't believe Christmas is in 4 days, it's freakin crazy. Jen's going to spend Christmas Eve night with us, so Christmas morning we can do a big breakfast and open gifts.

Jess got a leave... he's going to Elkhart. I'm trying to talk him into coming to see me for a little bit. He said Gloria has the 25th and the 26th off. So I told them to drive up Christmas evening and spend the night and they could leave the evening of the 26th. Hopefully they come and see us. It'll be the last time I see him for a few years...

Anyways, not much going on... Just wanted to check in!!!

Paul and I made love tonight, wonderful wonderful wonderful... Love that man!!!!

RGIS

I got a job!! Crazy huh?!?! lol... A couple of weeks ago I filled out an online application for RGIS (inventory) and they called me on Monday and asked me to come in for an interview Tuesday. THe interview was at 9, so I had to get up at 7... UGH... I was so tired. But I made it there. It was a group interview, but I got the job. I have training on Friday at 2. So unless I TOTALLLY bomb the training, I have a job... Weird huh?!?! We'll see how it goes. It means I'm going to have to get up WAYYYYY early. She said they usually start doing stores at 6 a.m. which means I'd have to get up at like 5 depending on what store and where it is. It's still weird. I've had alot of jobs, but this is my first "real" job. I would like to work nights, but I would never see Paul, I wouldn't be able to work for Rene' and I wouldn't be able to go to my Monday night meetings. So I'm working days... early early days... Ugh...

Anyways, I'm excited and nervous about the job. It seems pretty easy tho, so I can't imagine not doing well....

Jen still hasn't had the baby yet... But Nancy's not coming!!! WOOOO FRICKIN HOOO!!!! She doesn't have anywhere to stay!!! Sounds like she shoulda saved some money... But whatever...

Not much else is going on, I don't work for Rene' tonight because she's sick. Hopefully she feels better soon.

I won't start work (other then the training) until after Jan 1st. So that's cool!

Hmmm.. I can't believe Christmas is just a few days away, it's freakin crazy. I think I know Paul got me REBA and GOLDEN GIRLS on DVD, but I don't know what else he got me. I think he got me 3 things, so we'll see what he got me on Monday... It's crazy...

Not much else is going on, I'm cleaning out the fish tank right now, doing a 25% water change. And I have to clean out the fridge, something seriously stinks... LOL...

I love my hubby.

It's our first Christmas married and in our house :). And it's my first Christmas away from Momma :( It'll be good though!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Not much is going on.

Jen's gonna pop literally ANY day now. Her cervix is thinning, she's dialated like 1-2 cm, the babies head is dropping, and she's having "fake" contractions every 20-30 minutes. ANY DAY!!!

Jess is in Georgia I think for the services. He thinks he'll get to go see Gloria for Christmas, but he isn't sure.

Nancy is stressing Jen out... AGAIN... I don't know what the hell is wrong with this lady but she seriously needs to be locked in a mental institute for the rest of her life. The world would be a better place... Lol... She's flying up here on like the 26, and Paul has agreed to pick her up from the airport. That kinda ticked me off, because we talked and I THOUGHT had decided that we were done trying to do things for her. She's an adult and can take care of herself. So whatever, we're picking her up, but get this SHE HAS NO WHERE TO STAY. This chick has NO money, and is flying up here with no where to stay and no car to drive. It gets worse, Nancy AND Michelle are telling Jen that it's JENS responsibility to find Nancy a place to stay when she gets here. We've found a motel for her, it's like 25 bucks a nights, but she doesn't have any money. No one asked her to come, no one wants her to come, and she's coming with NO money. It makes no fucking sense to me. I know what's going to happen, or I'm atleast terrified that it's going to happen, Nancy is going to PUSH her way in Jen's apartment. Shes going to get here, start crying to Jen, and make Jen feel guilty about her not having anywhere to stay, and Jen will break down and let Nancy stay with her.... It fucking pisses me off... That women needs to save the world, and jump off a frikkin bridge.

Anyways, it's Christmas time, so on a happier note, I'm DONE with all my Christmas shopping. We sent my family (mom, granny, grandma and grandpa) Hickroy Farms. And sent my dad a Bass Pro Shop gift card. I think he'll enjoy it. I hope so. I bought the baby swing off of Renee for 25 bucks, I just worked, she didn't pay me, but gave me the swing. It's a nice swing, has a brand-spakin new motor in it. It's nice.

I can't believe Christmas is like 7 days away. Of course we're going to Fay and Jerry's for Christmas Eve. It'll be fun.

I'm a little freaked out though, this is the first Christmas I'm not with Momma... I'll be okay, but its weird.

Not sure if I've mentioned this, but Beth bought a house. The closing is Dec 27. We're going to help her paint. She's gonna move into the house when her lease is up on Jan 31. She's excited, but freaked out about the money - taxes, insurance, etc. She'll be okay. Mike's supposed to be home soon, any day now.

Anyways, today I'm just doing laundry, and cleaning the house.

We cleaned the basement. Swept and mopped. It was nasty dirty down there... UGH... Glad we got it done though. Well we're almost done. We'll finish it this weekend. We probably have 1/3 left.

Not much else is going on that I can think okay. So I'm gonna go eat some lunch, and clean the kitchen!!!

I love my husband!!!

Oh yea, Saturday was the first night Paul and I have ever gone to be without saying "I love you" or a good night kiss... I don't think I slept over an hour that night. It was bad. It was mostly a mistake. We'd had a little disagreement about his brothers and sisters (different story) and when we got home I went straight to bed. He stayed up for about 20-30 minutes. But when he came to bed he didn't kiss me or say "i love you". He said he wasn't feeling well, and he's sorry.

I love him!!!

Catch Up!!!

I know, I know... It's been a long time since my last entry. So this one is probably going to be long. I'm gonna try to elaborate on the "Highlights" from my last post, and talk about what's been going on since my last entry. Okay.... here I go...

HIGHLIGHTS -

Jesse Lee's Wedding : Wow! That's really all I can say... Glorias kids are definitly not right. We got there on Friday, October 27. After we picked up the tux Paul and I were hungry so we went to a little diner to get something to eat with Mom, Granny, and Jess. About 3/4 way through the meal Jess remembers that they were supposed to be going to Ryan's after the rehearasal for dinner... oh well...
So get ready to go the the rehearsal and Glorias son is driving and we're following him in our car. We're driving for like 45 minutes... UGH.... Going on all these different Highways and Freeways. Finally we get there... When we get ready to leave Gloria says "It would be easier and maybe quicker to go home the other way" So we go home the other way.... we are literally there in under 15 minutes... Told you these kids were messed up.
Anyways, at the rehearsal we're noticing that Ryan (The son, age 23) and Tristan (The daughter, age 16 or 17) are sitting on the same pew together. Tristan has her head in Ryan's lap and he's LOVINGLY caressing her hair... EWWW.... Paul and I look at eachother and say "NO wonder everyone in Elkhart is so damn ugly, it's incest". I know, we're mean.... But seriously, I've never seen so many ugly people in my life.
Anyways, I notice that the minister has a gun... Crazy!!! Jess jokes that we're in a REALLLY bad neighborhood... which after seeing it in the daylight I think we were... But the minister is like a volunteer cop or something like that... Very weird too.....
After the rehearsal we decided that we wanted to take Jess out for some beer at Applebee's... he is my brother and Paul was the best man and it's his last night of bachelorhood.... So Jess tells this to Gloria, and she gets a little upset. I tell Mom and Granny and they want to come... So I told them that they weren't asked to come. I wanted it to be something that Jess, Paul, and I do together... ALONE... Plus, we were going to sit there, talk, and drink beer for a few hours. 20 minutes in Granny would be bitching that she wanted to go back to the hotel room.. So I pissed her off when I told her that we didn't want her to come... Oh well.... So Gloria gets upset because the rehearsal dinner is off, and upset that we're taking him out for beer when she doesn't drink, Ryan doesn't drink, and Tristan obviously can't. Oh yea, forgot, GLORIA NEVER GOES ANYWHERE WITHOUT RYAN AND VICE VERSA!!!! So they go to Wal-Mart and a diner while we go to Applebees. Jess tells her that after they are done doing whatever the hell they are doing, that Gloria can join us. Well, Gloria did come, and without Ryan, but about 30 minutes before we left, and she just set there... all pissed off or something... she's a little odd... maybe because she didn't know us or something.
So the next day is the wedding. We go to breakfast. After breakfast we went to Jess's hotel room to get ready for the wedding. I noticed Jess has a huge scar on his back, later Mom told me he got it while he was overseas in Iraq.
So we get to the wedding, not that bad. Paul is the bestman. They give Granny a rose, makes her cry. Then at the end of the ceremony they say they have a rose for Grandpa (Black rose) and 2 roses for her parents that have passed away. Grandma and Mom started crying because they were sad that he wasn't there to see Jess get married... That kinda pissed me off... how can they cry over a bastard like him? How the hell can they want him to be there so see this? How the hell can they even be thinking of him??! I refused to console Mom and Granny. They had to console eachother... Just pissed me off.... Not that Jess did it, but the way that they reacted.
The reception was interesting. The turkey had set out in an 80 degree apartment for 2 days, so we didn't eat any... of course. Not to mention the fact that her gravy was cream of chicken soup which she poured over the turkey... Ugh... Really the only edible thing was the ham that Granny made, and of course the sea food salad...


People staying with us : PAIN IN THE ASS...I couldn't smoke, I had to listen to mom and granny NAG NAG NAG, I had to deal with her getting dirty fingerprints all over our NEW walls, It was hell... simple as that!!! It wasn't so bad when Jess was there... He kinda takes some of the heat off... but it was hell!! So glad its over!

Jen's Babyshower : Only a few people RSVP'ed... kinda pissed me off, but whatever. We decorated, and I made the food. The babyshower went good. Good food. The girls couldn't go like 45 minutes without smoking tho... Weird people came... I only knew a few people that were there. Jen got a shit load of stuff though... Everything went well...

Rushed Jen to the Emergency Room : On November, 18, the day before the babyshower, Jerry came over to help Paul put up the storm door. They were almost done, when Jen called and said that she wanted me to take her to the hospital because she didn't feel good. So of course, I rushed right out of the house, and took her to the hospital. They weren't sure what was wrong, dehydration, bad food, stomach flu, they were all mentioned. They hooked her up to fetal monitors, and an IV. We were there for about 5 hours. Paul came over when they finished with the storm door. Anyways, everything checked out, and they let her go home. She ended up spending the night with us. I didn't want her to go home, because Eric seemed to be acting like an ass, plus she just spent the day in the hospital. So it was nice having her at home with us. We played cards, and watched Da Vinci Code. She slept in the spare room. I dropped her off Sunday when I went to pick up the balloons for the shower. Worked out well.

I need to go eat something and start the laundry... BRB!!!

BONUS : Paul got his bonus on the 15th. I totally stocked the shelves. I spent about 800 bucks, but I don't think we ever have to go shopping again, except for bread and milk!! It was crazy. I had to go the Wal-Mart twice because my buggies were over flowing... It took me about an hour to get everything put away, and the shelves organized. Our foyer was packed full of bags, you couldn't walk.

Mike gone : Mike has been gone for a few weeks, and Beth was having a really rough time with it. We've been going over there every weekend to keep her company, but we can't this weekend because of all the snow and ice that we're supposed to get. Mike should be home within the next week or so for a little while.... Beth'll be so happy about that.

Thanksgiving : We were going to do Thanksgiving at our house, but with Mike being gone Beth wanted to do it at her house. So we did. I made the ham, mashed taters, and pumpkin pie. Food was awesome. Tim came. It was good seeing him. Haven't seen him in so long because of Shena. Belinda actually told us to THANK Shena for not coming so Time could come. Your kidding me right?!?! She's the reason he can't come to family get togethers.... Whatever... Thanksgiving was good, food was good, put the tree up... it's pretty!!!

New Job : I got a new job. It's pretty cool. To little boys. Nicholas is 3 and Benjamin is 15 months. It's every Wednesday night from 6:15 to 10. And then whenever she wants to go somewhere without the boys, dr.s appointments, etc. I worked all day Sunday. From 10:30 to 7:30. Made some Christmas shopping money. I'm going to buy her old baby swing from her for 25 bucks... All the new ones are over 60 bucks, we don't want to spend that much money on it... Now I can get a slightly used, still in great condition, new motor, swing for 25 bucks... works for me!!!

Cat : Never took him to the vet. Keep forgetting. The scratching has gotten a little better. He's not clawing himself or scratching his skin where he has scabs. Just a little scratching here and there now... I know I should still get him to the vet... we'll see....

Christmas Shopping : I think I'm all done, except for the baby swing. I'm sending my family Swiss Colony food again. Cheap and easy. Works for me. I'm all done with Paul... I thought I was all done last week, and then he told me he wanted work shirts. So I got him a work shirt too. 5 gifts under the tree for him... lol.... I think about him too much, everytime I'm out I see something I want to get him. I have to make myself stop. We said I could spend about 60 bucks on him... I think I spent around 100... so that's not so bad. I would say what I got him, but he sometimes reads my blog... Not sure when he does... don't want to take the chance. I got him on big gift ($60) of something that he really needs, but doesn't know he wants... it'll be a total surprise. Then I got him a few smaller gifts. Two 10 dollar gifts, One 6 dollar gift, and One 25 dollar gift. If it's the thought that counts, then he's made out BIG time this year from me... Lol... I think about him way too much when I'm shopping!!!

I knew this was going to be a long entry. I can't think of anything else to say though...

Oh yea, We turned in my Passat and got a new Audi A4. Then they told us they were extending the car deal until March. So we didnt' have to turn the Passat in. We still have his Passat that we'll keep until March. I wanted to make sure we kept a car for me incase Jen goes into labor when Eric's not home and she calls me to take her to the hospital.

Still haven't heard from Nathan. I sent him a "Remember Me" email and a text message... NOTHING.... Miss him...

I'm going to get the Christmas cards filled out for mailing. I'll mail them on December 13 probably. I enjoy doing it... it's fun....

Just doing laundry, and cleaning today. Gonna wrap one more gift for Jen...

Okay, I think thats it, I hope it is... It's taken me about an hour to write all this...

Love my husband bunches and bunches!!!!

Highlights....

Okay, I know its been forever. But right now I don't feel like writing a long blog, so I'll just put the highlights in for now, and elaborate later.

- Jesse Lee's wedding ... very interesting

- Mom, Granny, and Jesse Lee came up a week early... Thought I was going to shoot myself.

- Been getting ready for Jen's baby shower. No one RSVP'ed UGH

- Got in touch with Amber from middle schoo... She's pregnant... Congrats!

- Halloween was fun, handing out candy and all.

- Paul gets part of his bonus on Wednesday... Time to stock those shelves!

- Mike passed his State CDL test. He left for Ohio today for 3 weeks. Beth's sad... Gonna try to keep her company and call her more.

hmmm... I know theres more....

- Nancy called me. She's sending favors and wants to stay with us until Jen has her baby... Uhhh No way in hell is that going to happen...

- I have tons ideas for Jen's baby shower, but I'm really stressed out about it too.

- LOST is off for 3 months... Damnit!

- REBA starts the new season on Sunday... YAY!

- I can't wait to get pregnant... what else is new!! lol

- I can't believe Thanksgiving is less then 2 weeks away.. that's nuts!

- My tummy hurts....

- I got a new job... Wednesday nights and whenever else she needs me... The two most well behaved kids I've ever seen... Bedtime is abso-freakin-lutly amazing!!!

- I'm gonna take the cat to the vet this week to get an allergy shot... That should be loads of fun.

- I'm gonna put the Christmas decorations this week... probably tomorrow...
- I haven't talked to Nathan in like FOREVER... Starting to give up on ever talking to him again... Miss him!!

- I'm watching "Brothers and Sisters"... It's my favorite NEW show... GA still takes the cake!!!

- I love my husband!!!

- Can't think of anything else!!! I will elaborate on everything some other day... Right now I'm tired and my tummy hurts. Still love Paul to death... Lol... as if that'll ever change!!!

Not much has changed...

Just been relaxing. I had my pap... I start the pill on Sunday.. YAY!!! Can't wait for that.

Hmm... really not much has happened... I know I have a boring life...

Got some pumpkins... I'm gonna carve them this weekend. Can't wait to do that.. I love carving the pumpkins... and of course making the home made pies... I know, I know... very susie home maker of me.. Lol..

We're still enjoying our house.. Of course, I dont think we'll ever stop enjoying it. I love having all the Halloween decorations up. Oh yea, I bought this HUGE spider (fake of course). When I unfolded it's legs and set it on the floor it stands about 2 feet tall. Anyways, at first the cat was scared of it, then he lunged at it and was wrestling with it. Paul and I were laughing so hard... It was hilarious.

I started my period today. And I'm not on the pill so it's hell. Lots of cramps, extremely tired, back ache, head ache.. Ugh... It's so much better when I'm ont he pill.. Atleast I start the pill Sunday...

Oh man, We went to Beth's Saturday and hung out for like 12 hours. Cierra went to homecoming, she was so gorgeous... can't believe she's 14. Lol.. I know Beth was shocked when she saw her. Growin up fast. We watched the Tigers game.. We totally kicked ass!! It was so sweet. Hopefully they'll take it all the way.

Mike is going to truck driving school, so Beth is going to be left alone alot while he's working. Of course she's not happy about that. I told her we'd keep her company.

Can't think of anything else that's going on... Just wanted to check in.

HEY HEY SNOW!!!

Whats up everyone?!!?

Today is the first day of the season that it's snowed... and man is it snowing!!! Of course it's not sticking, except to the garage roof, bushes, and a few trees... But it sure is gorgeous coming down!!! It's HUGE flakes... I love days like this. It's about 38 degrees outside and really windy, and of course snowing!!! And it's great to be inside a nice toasty warm house, curled up on the couch with a book, or baking an apple pie (which i'm not doing, but it's still a nice thought!!). Maybe I'll bake one tomorrow!!! I love sitting here and looking out the 3 huge picture windows and watching the huge snow flakes blowing in the wind, and lightly hitting the ground! Amazing! Absolutly Gorgeous!!!!!

Things a good here. Been busy holding the fort down... as usual!!! Man I have a great life. I have a freaking sexy, gorgeous husband, whom in the past week is willing to do alot to please me (read last post). It's great. It's made us closer, and opened the communication up alot.

We made out lists last weekend. My list was 2 pages long... of course. And Paul's list surprised me quite a bit. There were a few things on there that really shocked me, but nothing out of the ordinary, so it's all good.

Our toys came in the mail last night. They're lots of fun. Paul and I had fun with them last night. Can't wait for him to get home tonight...

Anyways, enough on that.

I can't believe it's October 12. Man that's crazy. I can't believe we've been living in our amazing house over a month. It seems like we've always been here, but we're still enjoying it tremondously. It's GREAT!!!

In about 2 weeks we'll be getting ready to go to Jesse Lee's wedding. I still can't believe he's getting married! It just blows my mind. No one ever thought he would be getting married... not in a million years. But sadly, a couple of weeks after his wedding, he's going back to Iraq. That is quite saddening. We're supposed to be celebrating his and Glorias new lives together, and he's going to be gone for the first 2 years of his marraige... Some marraige huh!?!? Not to mention that they've only met a couple times... very odd. But as long as he's happy with it... that's all that matters.

Then after the wedding my mom AND grandma are going to be here for a few days..... Shoot me now! I can barely handle one at a time for a few days, and now you're throwing both at me... UGH!!! But I still love them, and I'm excited to have them see our house, and spend some time with them. Paul's lucky, he'll be at work everyday!! They'll only be here a few days tho. Saturday night, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and they're leaving either Wednesday or Thursday morning. And Jesse Lee and Gloria are going to be here over night one night. So that'll be interesting. I'm also interested to see how Granny handles all the stairs in our house. I highly doubt that she'll go up to the third floor... But we'll see. And when she comes downstairs in the morning, she won't go back up until bed time. I just have to make sure I keep them off of my computer... There's alot of stuff on here I DON'T want them to see... Lol... if ya know what I mean!!!

I have my pap on Monday... UGH!!! But at the same time I'm looking foward to it because it means I get to go back on the pill... NO MORE CONDOMS!! YAY!!! But I am totally not looking foward to them shoving something inside of me, opening me up, and rooting around in there with a q-tip and something that looks like a bristly bottle opener!!! Lol... Nice visual huh!?!? Doesn't feel good either!!! The joys of being female! UGH!!

The snow is still coming down hard, but it's smaller snow flakes. Still gorgeous though!!! It's stuck to one side of all the trees, the roof of the garage is covered, and so are the bushes. But of course, nothing is sticking to the ground. It's starting to stop snowing, and sun is trying to come back out again.. What a weird day. It snowed earlier too, and then the sun came out, now its snowing, then the sum will come out again... I hope it's going to be like this all day... GORGEOUS GORGEOUS GORGEOUS!!!!

Oh yea, as of Saturday, October 7, 2006 I have been living in Michigan 5 years!!! WOW!!!

Don't think much else is going on... Just enjoying life in our amazing house with my amazing husband!!! Love you Paul!!!!

Sex...

Okay, so this is a touchy subject, and not everyone that reads my blog is going to want to read this entry... just a warning... IT'S ABOUT SEX WITH PAUL.

On Tuesday night I told Paul that I thought I wanted to have sex with some one else. And I really did think I wanted too. I was tired of the same 'ole same 'ole with him, not to mention the fact that we didn't make love but once every 2-3 weeks... Our sex life and regular life had become boring. I know that is to be somewhat expected when you've been living together for 5 years and don't constantly work on keeping things new (which we never did). We were detatched, extremely detatched. Not even in our sex lives but also in our communication. Well, that's all changed... it's amazing what being honest with your husband can accomplish Lol! So I sadly told him that I wanted to have sex with some one else, that I had talked to someone online (in the Detroit area) about having sex with him, or atleast meeting him and doing oral. I was hurting, and so was Paul. I hurt him alot by telling him that. I don't regret telling him though, as it seems to have made things better.

That night when I went to bed around 1:00 a.m. I started touching him, before I knew it he was touching me too. And we ended up making love. It was great, but I didn't have an orgasm, so that made me feel even worse, like maybe I really did need to have sex with some one else.

When I woke up that morning I was thinking "We just need to spice things up". I was no longer thinking about having sex with some one else. So I spent an hour or so online (adameve.com) and picked out some toys for us. When Paul got him I ran the idea of introducing toys into our sex life, he seemed interested in it... So we ordered a few things. I won't go into details though... Lol...

After we ordered the toys we went upstairs and made love. And I did have an orgasm. It was great.

Last night I went to bed at 2:00 a.m. and started touching Paul agian, and again we made love. Paul tried this new position (again no details lol), it was awesome... It didn't allow me to have an orgasm, but it was awesome none the less. I did have an orgasm before we were done though. But he didn't cum... it was late, he was tired, and by the time I came he was soft.

So, just from mentioning that our sex life isn't the greatest, we've made love 3 times in 48 hours... I believe that's a record for us. It's amazing, I feel close to him again, it's been a while since I've felt close to him.

So when he got home from work today I gave him a blow job and made him cum. He enjoyed it... of course!

I'm really excited about our toys. I hate having to wait for them... we should have paid the extra money for express delivery Lol... But they should be here by next weekend... I hope, cause I plan on spending a few hours in bed with my husband.

I also asked Paul to sit down and make a list of all the things that he wants me to do to him, he wants to do to me, he wants to see me do to myself, and he wants to do to himself. And I would make my list of things that I want him to do to me, I want to do to him, I want to see him to do himself, and what I want to do to myself. I know his list is going to be like 3 lines long... Hand job, Blow job, and sex.... Lol... I started my list today and it's already a page long... single spaced lol...

So wish me luck!!! I'm determind to have mind-blowing, earth shattering sex with my husband. We'll see how this list thing goes... and see how it goes with the toys... I can't wait!!!!

Catch Up Time!!

Okay, So I know it's been a while since my last entry. I apologize!!!

Lets see...

Jesse Lee's getting married, and being sent back to Iraq. The chic he is marrying is a little... odd I guess! She's much older then him (not that I can say anything about that Lol). The wedding is in Elkhart, IN, only 4 hours away from us. Paul is going to be the best man because Uncle Ralph can't come. The wedding was originally planned for June of 2007. But Jesse Lee has to leave for Iraq on November 19 and will be gone almost two years. So Gloria pushed the wedding up to October 28.... We all think that was totally Gloria's doing. She got really pissed when Jesse Lee told her that while he was over seas Granny is still his power of attorney.. LOL... He knows Granny will pay his bills... He's only met Gloria twice... Frankly, I think that if he doesn't trust her with his money then he shouldn't be marrying her... But Whatever! So Gloria has like 5 kids... All grown and ALL free loaders... The youngest is still in High School. This wedding should be interesting... Jesse Lee in a church!!! Give me a break... the whole thing will crumble around him... Not to mention seeing him in a tux AND getting his picture taken... WOW!!! That's alot for him to handle!!! I'm gonna love it!!!

After the wedding Momma and Granny are coming home with us for a few days. Then Jesse Lee and Gloria will drive up here to get them, spend the night, and then all drive back to AR. This shold be interesting... Having my mom AND granny in my house... And I can't smoke!!!! I'm going to die!!! Oh well, it's only a few days... I guess I'll deal! And Granny INSISTS on meeting Paul's parents... That's going to be a stressful meeting... Praying that Fay and Jerry don't mention Paul's age... But it shouldn't come up... Hopefully!!!

The Kitchen and Living room are painted... It's great having color in the house. The Living Room is "Gobi Desert". It's a light brown. And the Kitchen is "Mother Nature" it's a totally awesome green... It ROCKS!!!

Moving on...

I'm off the pill.... For now anyways. I had an appointment for a couple of weeks ago at PPH but they never scheduled my appointment and their doctor quit. If the dumb ass receptionist would have put me in the books... LIKE SHE SAID SHE DID!!... They would have called and canceled my appointment.. But instead I drove ALL the freakin way out there... I was sooo freaking pissed. So Now I have an appointment at the doctors office right up the road for October 16. So when I have my period again I'll go back on the pil... Oh well.... But we are planning to stop taking BC in April and start trying to get pregnant!!! I can't wait!!! In the mean time, practicing if TONS of fun!!!

I took Precious to the vet yesterday... He cried the whole way there and the whole way back... He got a good bill of health and has even lost half a pound!! Woo Hoo!!!

I'm still not working... UGH!! But I'm enjoying cleaning the house everyday. I have all the fall decorations set up.. It looks great... Theres spider webs everywhere! It's awesome...

I'm trying to think of what else has been going on... I know I'm forgetting stuff....

My dad's been calling alot... It's really weird. It's like Sally said, when I gave up the resentment and pretty much gave up on him, he started calling and talking to me... and trying to have a relationship... It's not much, considering he likes to talk about fishing, but atleast we're talking about something, so that's fine with me.

Jen's doing good... she sure is getting big... I'm so jealous... but everyone knows that! I'm going to throw her a shower the first Saturday in December... It'll be a blast having all her friends in my house... Lol

I miss Nathan... He said he had to retake a test that he flunked... I know he'll do great. And Jenn is going out of town so I'll have him to myself to chat with... Can't wait for that!!!

I woke Paul up at 1 a.m. last night and fucked his brains out... It was so freakin awesome!!! I definitly have to wake him up in the middle of the night more often...

Hope Jen isn't reading this... That would totally gross her out!!!

God I love that man!!! I'm so glad I married him, he just makes everything all better!!!

It ROCKS!!!

Man, I love being in our new house.

I know it's been a while since my last entry, but we've been really busy.

The day before (Aug 30) the closing Leon called and said that the closing costs were $11,000 and we only had $7,000. So we had to scramble around and borrow money from Paul's parents and my dad, oh, and Beth. Fortunatly we were able to pay them back the next day becuase Paul got paid. And then Leon pulled some strings so the closing costs were a little less the $4000. I don't know what he did, but I'm really thankful... That was a VERRRY stressful day. I was so afraid that we wouldn't be able to get the house... BUT WE DID!!! YAY!!!!

It took us two days to move out of the apartment. It was a pain in the ass. We broke the fish tank stand and the computer desk. Oh well.... We were there until midnight on the 31 and then had to come back on the 1st and finish everything up. It was crazy!!!

Then we spent the weekend trying to get everything put away, because on Monday my Dad came. I had alot of fun with him and am really glad that he came. Honestly, I really didn't think he would show up. But he did. We went to Port Huron to the Blue Water Bridge and then to Lexington to see Lake Huron on Tuesday. On Wednesday we went to Greenfield Village. It was really cool seeing all the historical stuff... very interesting. Wednesday night we all went to down town Detroit and had a blast. We ate at Nikis... the best freaking pizza in the world. Then we rode the people mover... it was kinda scary, I didn't like the turns... but also cool... We also walked along the rive. And then my dad left Thursday morning. Can't believe that was a week ago....

We've been in the house 2 weeks... it's so awesome. But it also feels like we've been here forever, I don't really think about the apartment all that much... seems like we were never there.

The cat seems more at home here then he did in the apartment, but getting him here was horrible. First of all he doesn't like car rides. So on the car ride here he cried the whole way. I felt horrible listening to him. And then when we got to the house and Paul was carrying the carrier in the whole thing was shaking... Poor Precious was freaking out. Then we took him down to the basement (still in the carrier) and he'd peed all over himself cause he was so scared. So we locked him in the basement all night and I gave him a bath the next day and let him loose in the house. He went nuts exploring everything. It was cool watching him check everything out. Also that night was the first time he'd ever seen stairs. It was so funny. He was like "What the hell is this, and how am I supposed to get up these damn things!" It was hilarious. but he's figured it out and thumps up and down them all the times. Plus he's not eating as much because his food is in the basement, and we all know how lazy he is!!!! So maybe he's lost some weight!!!

So let's see... what else....

Oh yea, Paul's turned into "Mr. Fix-It". It's hilarious but awesome. He's gotten really good with caulking and grout... Just doing minor things, the big things we'll have the association fix.

Our shower heads don't get hot water... it barely gets warm. But the bath tubs and sinks upstairs get scalding hot... so that's something the association will have to fix. Plus, our door bells don't work... those are just a couple things that need to be fixed, not that theres alot.

On Monday (Sept 18) I'm having our metting here at the house. I'm excited about it... getting to show off the house to them... It's cool.

This weekend we're going to paint the living room. The color is "Gobi Desert". If we have the money I want to do the kitchen too, even though at some point we want to tile the wall below the cabinets. We can still paint, and then tile over it at some point.

There's alot of stuff to do in a house, but I LOVE it!!! I still can't believe we're here... It's awesome!!!!

That's all that I can remember for now, I'm sure that I've left off alot of stuff... if I remember anything else I'll post again...

Oh yea, Paul wants me to look online and see how much blinds will be for the living room... God I love that man!!!!

6 Days!!!

I can't freakin believe this!!! 6 Freaking days till we move into our house!!!!! Hopefully... Alots been going on with the house. We had the orientation walk through on Tuesday... that went really good, just pointed about a ton of small things... little dings in the wall etc... nothing major...

Then we had to move the Appraisal up a day because Leon said that it was cutting it a little close. That if we kept the appointment for Friday then we might not be able to do the closing on Aug 31... and we weren't about to let that happen... Lol...

Paul just called and he dropped all the papers off at Leons office for Diane.. He had to drop of 2004 and 2005 tax returns, his last 2 pay stubbs, 12 month rental history for the apartment, and a lease of the apartment... he also dropped off his retirement plan for them too. Diane was impressed with how organized everything was and said that she "Would work her magic"... let's hope she does!!!

Anyways, I'm still not working... it sucks... i've been moping around the house for the past week and a half... UGH!!!! I hope I can go back to work soon. But hopefully not until after we move into the house.

My computer quit working last Friday because the power cord wasn't working... So the computer was working, but wasn't recieving power so when the battery died my computer didnt work... Paul called Dell and told them to send us a new power cord, but they wanted to come out and put in a new mother board, because they didn't think it was the power cord. So we had to wait till Wednesday for some dude with grimy long hair that kept coughing on my laptop to change the mother board, and then it STILL didn't work... so finally they sent me a freaking power cord, so it's working now. UGH!!!

Anyways, I can't wait until we move into our house!!!!!!!

We ordered blinds from selectblinds.com and they should be coming in the next couple of weeks. I also just odered paint samples from Behr.com I ordered Mother Nature - for the kitchen, Summer Field - for the foyer, stairs, and hall, and Gobi Desert - for the living room!!! We'll try the samples and see what we think... they look cool on the computer...

Anyways, not much else is going on, so I'm gonna go... just trying to relax now that I know the closing with be on the 31st... YAY!!!

I love Paul!!!

Oh yea, forgot to say that Jen's not moving into the house with us... Her and Eric got an apartment... I give it till Halloween... She'll be moved in with us and her and Eric will be broken up... UGH!!!! I hope that doesn't happen... but it probably willl... maybe I should just be more optomistic... but this is Jen we're talking about.... Oh well...!!!

Still can't wait to move into our new house... Just Paul and me!!!! YAY!!! Husband and Wife... alone at last and it's OUR time!!!

UGH and YAY!

It's been a while since my last entry. Not a whole lot has happened... This entry is just what is says "UGH and YAY!!"

Ugh - Yesterday was my last day at work for a while. Jessies dad got laid off so he's going to watch Aiden for a few weeks... Hopefully, he'll get tired of it and I'll be able to start back in a couple weeks. On the other hand, it gives me a few weeks to get everything packed and get the apartment cleaned from top to bottom... so this is kinda "UGH" and "OKAY"; not really a "YAY" but an "OKAY".

YAY - OMG I have VIP tickets to "Extreme Home Makeover" for tomorrow. I am taking Fay with me, and we're sooo excited about it. We're supposed to get free food and drinks, etc. I don't know if we'll get to see the house and meet some of the stars from the show... it's so exciting. I can't wait. I have to get up at like 9 in the morning tho... another UGH!! Lol... but I'll do it to get the "YAY" lol... Lombardo is the builder that is building the house on the show, and since he's the builder that is building our house we were offered VIP tickets... YAY!!

So I picked up the tickets today and Jen went with me. We go to see the house... it's really coming along. All the sinks, counters, toilets, and tubs are in. They have the hardwood floors in the kitchen and dining room in. And the floors in the foyer, laundry room, powder room, and grade door also. All the tile is in the bathrooms, it looks really nice. Everything is really dusty tho... Lol... of course. In less then three weeks we'll be moved in... YAY!!!!

Last weekend we went to church. It was my first adult experience in a Catholic church. It was very... interesting... yea, that word'll do... Lol... Paul didn't warn me at all... but like he said, he didn't know what I knew and didn't know, he thought all churches were the same... WELL THEY AREN'T!!! I didn't know about responding, and we did more standing and kneeling then sitting. There was also more singing then sermon... And the communion... whoa... I'm so glad Paul told me I couldn't go up there because when I say everyone else getting up I would have went too... Lol... that wouldn't have been good. And "Peace be with you" that threw me also... I'm glad Paul said it to me first because I didn't know what was going on and wouldn't have known what to say to people or what was going on... Ugh... I guess I'll get used to it. We were going to go to a diff church this weekend because we want to try a few before we decide which one we like the most. Oh another thing, I didn't know you werent supposed to talk... How horrible!!! We walked in and I started talking to Paul and he was ignoring me and then told me not to talk. In my church it was very social. You walked in a started talking to people... Needless to say, Catholic churches are VERY different from the southern Baptist church I grew up on... Lol...

Not much else is going on. I went to Petco and got some more cat food, put gas in the car, went to Blockbuster, and Kroger. From Blockbuster I got "Final Destination 3", "V is for Vendetta", and "Inside Man". They sounded good so we'll see...

Anyways, Paul should be home soon. Can't wait to see him... Love that man sooo much!!!

Packing, Packing, Packing...

I've been so busy packing. Our living room is full of boxes. I'm enjoying packing. It's giving me a chance to get rid of a bunch of old crap.

Only 28 days until the closing... Hehehe... I'm so excited. But I hate waiting... Lol...

Not much else is going on. We just chilled at home on the weekend. Didn't do much.

I woke up a lil depressed on Sunday and spent 2 hours in bed crying. Paul was very supportive and held me the whole time. So that was nice.

I went to Jen's dr.s appointment with her today. They did another ultrasound and a 3D ultrasound. It was so cool. I can't wait to be pregnant. The 3D ultrasound was cool, you can actually make out the babies facial features.

My hours at work are a lil different this week. I worked from 730 to 230 yesterday, and had today off. Then tomorrow I work from 730 to 1230. And I work all day Friday... Ugh...

Anyways, I'm gonna close for now... like I said, not much is going on, just been busy packing and very excited about moving!!!!

28 DAYS!!!